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Unity?

2012-01-30T00:33:00.001+08:00

Dear God, why are we so evil in treasuring a form of unity that is so superficial like unity in being under a certain organization, unity in love, unity in race, unity in language and all kinds? In the end, when the 'wind blows' what will be left? Why do we not understand Isaiah 40:8-The grass withers, the flower fades,

but the word of our God will stand forever? All the unities above will never last but ultimately, those who hold on to the unity of God's revealed truth will not fade... Why? Firstly, God is an eternal being Himself, therefore His word will transcend time and space(guess what, He made them too)... Secondly, it takes the conviction of the Holy Spirit these truths in the Bible that is totally different from the wisdom of the world... Basically, saying it's God helping you to understand His Own eternal word... So of course la, it won't fade, win-win situation... Therefore, doctrinal truths matter!!! It's not just piece of paper or what you need to know to be a Christian instead, if you're a Christian, you have to know it!!!

But what do we do with it? Are we really concerned for it? No... Instead, we treasure those superficial unity more which in actual fact is no unity at all... Be it with non-Christian or worse still, Christians, we just like to avoid conflict and brush things off...

The most hurtful thing you can hear from people would be, 'aiya, what's with all these theology all? not important la... justification by faith, not by theology... so, please don't fight over it and let's just continue to be bros and sis la ok?'

How futile is this to think of theology in this way... Have you ever considered Ephesians 4? One baptism, one faith, one LORD and more ONES... And what does the bible say about unity? And do we even have any idea of what theology really means? If you don't view God in a proper manner, obviously it will affect the way you live la... E.g. when we are busy with our studies, we instantly spend time less on working out what the bible is saying... And in light of reading 1Corinthians, it just makes me ask myself the question of my own identity, am i a Christian 1st or a student 1st? If we are indeed Christian 1st, why can't we put reading the bible, committing to church, doing ministry and even considering helping to advance God's kingdom and on and on instead of our studies? Not saying studying is wrong, but why not? In 1Cor 7, you can see that marriage itself obviously can cause your time devoted to God be divided, but does it mean you don't marry? Likewise in everything else, studies, career, family, relationships, hobbies and all will also divide your time devoted to God, but in the same passage, you can see we are to secure our undivided devotion to the LORD... How la?

Undeniably, no one will ever have the perfect theology, but that doesn't mean it's not important... And after knowing the basis of unity, dare we even say that it's not important?

Sometimes it's just so sad to see the scenario above...

LORD, please remind us of our identity and lead us not into temptation and deliver us from evil...

I don't wanna be a Corinthian!!!

2012-01-29T01:23:00.001+08:00

O LORD, why are we so useless? why are we so dull? why are we so foolish? why are we so sinful? gah... I don't want to be like the Corinthians who often forget their identity in Christ and to add on to that, they don't even know they are doing it... Sounds so impossible to happen, but that's the reality of it... That's how 'powerful' God sees us as...

1Cor 3:1-4
But I, brothers,1 could not address you as aspiritual people, but as bpeople of the flesh, as cinfants in Christ. 2 dI fed you with milk, not solid food, for eyou were not ready for it. And even now you are not yet ready, 3 for you are still of the flesh. For while there isfjealousy and strife among you, are you not of the flesh and behaving only in a human way? 4 For gwhen one says, “I follow Paul,” and another, “I follow Apollos,” hare you not being merely human?

This kinda tells a lot about them, that they already are a new creation in Christ but yet they are behaving as though nothing has happened... Continue to be in synergy with the world and moreover, adopt the worldly wisdom to do things as seen in 1Cor 6:1-11:

When one of you has a grievance against another, does he dare go to law before the unrighteous rinstead of the saints? 2 Or do you not know that sthe saints will judge the world? And if the world is to be judged by you, are you incompetent to try trivial cases? 3 Do you not know that we are to judge angels? How much more, then, matters pertaining to this life! 4 So if you have such cases, twhy do you lay them before those who have no standing in the church? 5 uI say this to your shame. Can it be that there is no one among you wise enough to settle a dispute between the brothers, 6 but brother goes to law against brother, and that before unbelievers? 7 To have lawsuits at all with one another is already a defeat for you. vWhy not rather suffer wrong? Why not rather be defrauded? 8 But you yourselves wrong and defraud—even wyour own brothers!1

9 Or do you not know that the unrighteous2 will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived: xneither the sexually immoral, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor men who practice homosexuality,310 nor thieves, nor the greedy, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor swindlers will inherit the kingdom of God. 11 And ysuch were some of you. But zyou were washed, ayou were sanctified, byou were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and by the Spirit of our God.

This is just so saddening but yet relieving in a sense that this pushes us to keep trusting God and His revealed Word... Perhaps, that's why in Isaiah, he kept telling Israel that there will be a Great Redeemer and kept reminding them that they are indeed the redeemed...

May God continue to renew our minds and help us to not do things for our own sake and also to judge everything as we have been given the mind of Christ to do so...

God _________ Gospel...

2011-12-14T22:47:00.000+08:00

Why do you believe in Jesus? Seriously, why do you believe in Jesus? Have you asked yourself this question before? I have, and the answer wasn't a pleasing one... Well, you might give the right answer but be honest with yourself, is that what your heart is really saying? That's what i'm pushing for, to be honest and humble before God and change our old ways...

There's a lot of of answers to the question if you're honest to give the honest answer... Jesus can offer me a better life, Jesus is a good role model, Jesus is a good man, Jesus can bring me to heaven, Jesus can give me what i want(ask and you will receive), Jesus is God, Jesus deserves to be worshiped and etc... All of these can be true but i'm pushing for you to see something greater(if it's possible by God's grace)...

Let's assume somehow you can get to HEAVEN filled with everything you like, chocolates, ice creams, japanese food, kobe beef, durians, LV bags, Nike shoes, 3-storey bangalows, hot S-curved ladies, hot gym dudes with 6 packs, big sandy beaches with coconut drinks and on... Such a beautiful place isn't it? Would you be dying to go there? In case you didn't notice, there was 1 thing missing, the one and only thing that gives you comfort in life and death-Jesus... Now, do you still want to go to heaven without Jesus? The whole point of heaven is Jesus is there, God is there, that's why He came to earth to die for your rebellion, to BRING YOU BACK... If you want to go to heaven without Jesus, why do you even 'want' the gospel? John Piper's 5 year old granddaughter could ask this question... No joke, go listen to the source that I'll quote to you at the end of the post...

Imagine there is this kind person who gives you a present each day, and slowly you start to like this friend... One day, he stops doing all this, then you feel weird, and start questioning him... So what was your 'liking' based on? The gifts or the giver himself? Translate this to the gospel, if you believe in Jesus because He can give you great stuffs i.e. eternal life, goodies etc, then aren't you the same as the example above in loving the GIFTS and not the GIVER? Now, take a step back and look at the gospel again, did God offer us some special or good stuff? No, he offered HIMSELF!!! All the good stuffs are used to give glory to the GIVER, not the gifts itself... Psalm 43:4- an altar is where sacrifices were made, in order to cleanse ourselves, but notice that after going to the altar, the psalmist says to God my exceeding joy... It's not even about being cleansed or whatever in that sense, but God is the joy!!!

In Acts 8:9-25, Simon the magician saw Peter converting people and Simon wanted the same power... But a crude way of Peter's reply would be(quoting Piper), 'to Hell with you and your money', for Simon wanted the spirituality and power that the Holy Spirit can offer... This is a great rebuke for us if we follow Jesus for spirituality(in a wrong way) and power or whatever that He has to offer... Deuteronomy3:1-3, God did the signs and wonders to test us, through false prophets, the test is not whetheryou can perform sign and wonder but do you speak the truth from His holy Word.God is more important than spiritual gifts.

John7:1-5- Jesus’ own brother don’t even believe in Him, the eagerness to ask him to perform the works is worldly. Believingin Jesus doesn’t save you if you believe in him to do the right stuff. Gottatalk about believing in Jesus for the right thing. Why do you believe in Jesusfor? Believe Him for God.

James4:2-5- God wants us for Himself, and not 'sleep' with anyone else. She goes tobed with God and pray for money so that she can pay to another man to sleep with. We cannot know what prayer is for until we know life is war. Hallowed be thy nameis the goal of every prayer. Prayer is for calling in firepower in battlefield.What’s the battle? To see him, know him, treasure him, not to use him. It's notwrong to pray for health or whatever. It’s wrong if you want IT more than youwant God and using Him to get IT.

Thereis a kind of thanksgiving that is idolatry. You can thank God with an unregeneratedheart. They are thankful for the cross as an echo of their own worth. ‘They firstrejoiced and are elevated with the fact that they are made much of by God. Thenon that ground, God seems lovely to them. They are pleased in the highestdegree in hearing how much God and Christ make much of them. So that their joyis really in themselves and not in God’. ‘This is the differencebetween the joy of the hypocrite and the joy of the saint. The hypocriterejoices in himself. Self is the 1^st foundation of his joy. The truesaint rejoices in God. True saint has his mind inexpressibly with the gloriousand amiable natures of God. This is the spring of their delight and cream oftheir pleasures. This is in contrary of the hypocrites, they first rejoice thatthey are made so much by God, and on that, God seems lovely to them. Thereare many evangelistic tracts in churches who are doing this.’-Jonathan Edwards.

2 2 Corinthians 4:4-6- the gospel is the glory of Christ. The gospel is about Christ who is the image of God!!!

1. Godis glorified in the work of redemption by the greatness of man’s dependence uponHim in the whole of it. The redeemed have all their objective good in God, Godhimself is the great good which they are brought to possession of and enjoymentof. He is the highest good and the sum of all that good which Christ purchased.God is the inheritance of the saints, he is the portion of their souls, theirwealth and treasure, their food, life, dwelling place, health, their diadem andglory. They have none in heaven but God. He is the great good which theredeemed are received to at death and which they are to rise to at the end ofthe world. The LORD God, he is the light of the heavenly Jerusalem and is theriver and water of life that runs. In amidst the paradise of God, the gloriesand excellencies of God will be what will forever entertain the minds of thesaints. The love of god will be the everlasting feast. The redeemed will enjoyother things, angels, each other, but all these that will draw them to delightin all these will be what God made them to point to Him.

Phil 1:20-21- there is a significant contrast between life and death... The most significant contrast being to live is Christ, to die is gain... For most of us, i think we focus too much on the 2nd part, but after understanding all the above, i see a massive contrast in between these two... To live is Christ, to live in this world is better in one sense because you can do His work and proclaim Him and truly show the world how He is your only joy, because we don't see Him yet but we still dare to be fools for Christ... TO LIVE IS CHRIST seems much more appealing to me now, but it's tough...

God is most glorified in us when we are most satisfied in Him... So why do you believe in Jesus? Are you satisfied in Jesus?

These are tough concepts, but it's biblical... Still trying to work it out myself too... Feel free to edify and rebuke me...

All these are just SOME notes and reflections of mine after listening to 'God is the GOSPEL' by Piper... Do check it out...

May God help us understand and accept these hard truths...

Debate...

2011-07-01T22:14:00.003+08:00

I have to admit I didn't know what debate was until today... Until I was randomly asked to help out as a timekeeper... I get to witness 2 matches of the competition... If only I could just sit down and listen and observe everything single thing without having the responsibility to be in charge of anything, I'm sure I'd learn a lot more...

Basically, debate is an art of convincing and persuasion... It all stems from the structure of your issues and then the articulation providing the flow... And how you use opponent's offense and turn it into your defense... So, your brain has to work super fast in listening the points given by the opponent, find their inconsistencies, and state your points and do everything within a certain time limit with a clear speech...

It's like breaking down an ugly picture into fragments and rebuilding with your very own materials and it has to be nice and presentable... It takes a certain maturity in thinking in order to do all these... Maybe, that's why it's called debate and not arguments... The picture of argument that I have in mind is when 2 lil kids plays LEGO or something, 1 of them got so pissed that he/she just destroys everything... That's how arguments come about I THINK...

Apply this theologically, i.e. during evangelism, find their inconsistencies, break it down, present the truth... If only I have 2 brains, evangelizing to 2 Einstein's wouldn't be a problem... Note, it's just evangelism, not conversion...

But then again, everything that is debatable is only a subjective opinion... Worse still, there might be no point in debating over certain issues... So then, what's the point of even debating about it???

Where is the objectivity?!

Saw this on a T-shirt: We have so many needs in our life, at the end of the day, the only need is to be needed... How true it is for a selfish man...

History's ugliest picture...

2011-06-13T23:55:00.005+08:00

How can a gruesome crucifixion that happened two thousand years ago help when your past comes knocking today?

The answer is that the Cross is God's plan for freeing you from the guilt and punishment of your past sin. At the Cross, we see both the depths of our depravity and the heights of God's amazing love for us. We witness both the terrifying intensity of God's just wrath for sin and His unspeakable mercy and love for sinners.

Why the Cross?

Because sinners have no hope.

Why the Cross?

Because it is the unassailable proof that we can be forgiven.

Let's gaze on it together. As we draw close, don't assume that you already know or understand what happened there. Come to the Cross as if for the first time. In the book When God Weeps, Steven Estes and Joni Eareckson Tada give the following account of Christ's death. As you read, refuse to let the scene be familiar. Let its reality shock you and break your heart.

The face that Moses had begged to see-was forbidden to see-was slapped bloody (Exodus 33:19-20). The thorns that God had sent to curse the earth's rebellion now twisted around his own brow...

"On your back with you!" One raises a mallet to sink in the spike. But the soldier's heart must continue pumping as he readies the prisoner's wrist. Someone must sustain the soldier's life minute by minute, for no man has this power on his own. Who supplies breath to his lungs? Who gives energy to his cells? Who holds his molecules together? Only by the Son do "all things hold together" (Colossians 1:17). The victim wills that the soldier live on- he grants the warriors continued existences. The man swings.

As the man swings, the Son recalls how he and the Father first designed the medial nerve of the human forearm-the sensations it would be capable of. The design proves flawless-the nerves perform exquisitely. "Up you go!" They lift the cross. God is on display in his underwear and can scarcely breathe.

But these pains are a mere warm-up to his other and growing dread. He begins to feel a foreign sensation. Somewhere during this day an unearthly foul odor began to waft, not around his nose, but his heart. He feels dirty. Human wickedness starts to crawl upon his spotless being-the living excrement from our souls. The apple of his Father's eye turns brown with rot.

His Father! He must face his Father like this! From heaven the Father now rouses himself like a lion disturbed, shakes his mane, and roars against the shrivelling remnant of a man hanging on a cross. Never has the Son seen the Father look at him so, never felt even the least of his hot breath. But the roar shakes the unseen world and darkens the visible sky. The Son does not recognize these eyes.

"Son of Man! Why have you behaved so? You have cheated, lusted, stolen, gossiped-murdered, envied, hated, lied. You have cursed, robbed, overspent, overeaten-fornicated, disobeyed, embezzled, and blasphemed. Oh, the duties you have shirked, the children you have abandoned! Who has ever so ignored the poor, so played the coward, so belittled my name? Have you ever held your razor tongue? What a self-righteous, pitiful drunk-you, who molest young boys, peddle killer drugs, travel in cliques, and mock your parents. Who gave you the boldness to rig elections, foment revolutions, torture animals, and worship demons? Does the list never end! Splitting families, raping virgins, acting smugly, playing the pimp-buying politicians, practicing exhortation, filming pornography, accepting bribes. You have burned down buildings, perfected terrorist tactics, founded false religions, traded in slaves-relishing each morsel and bragging about it all. I hate, loathe these things in you! Disgust for everything about you consumes me! Can you not feel my wrath?!"

Of course the Son is innocent. He is blamelessness itself. The Father knows this. But the divine pair have an agreement, and the unthinkable must now take place. Jesus will be treated as if personally responsible for every sin ever committed.

The Father watches as his heart's treasure, the mirror-image of himself, sinks drowning into raw, liquid sin. Jehovah's stored rage against humankind from every century explodes in a single direction.

"Father! Father! Why have you forsaken me?!"

But heaven stops its ears. The Son stares up at the One who cannot, who will not, reach down or reply.

The Trinity had planned it. The Son endured it. The Spirit enabled him. The Father rejected the Son whom he loved. Jesus, the God-man from Nazareth, perished. The Father accepted his sacrifice for sin and was satisfied. The Rescue was accomplished.

Don't move too quickly from this scene. Keep gazing.

The Rescue accomplished here was for you. John Stott writes, "Before we can begin to see the cross as something done for us, we have to see it as something done BY us... As we face the cross, then, we can say to ourselves both 'I DID IT; my sins SENT Him there,' and 'He did it; His love took Him there.'"

Did you see your own offenses on the list of sins that necessitated the Cross? If not, name them yourself. Name your darkest sin. Now reflect on the fact that Christ bore the punishment for that sin. He took the punishment you deserved. Do you feel His passionate and specific love for you? He died for you. He was condemned and cursed so that you could go free-He was forsaken by God so that you would never be forsaken (Hebrews 13:5).

Taken from Joshua Harris' Boy Meets Girl...

Deception...

2011-06-07T20:38:00.002+08:00

I'm so sick of you!!! And i know that it's not right to say this but i just feel like saying it, i hate you!!! Can you just stop deceiving me in saying that everything is for my own good, when you don't even know what i really want, so much for staying under 1 roof for so long... I hate it that you deceive me by wanting me to do well, but in the end it's for your own freaking glory... Can you just freaking say that you're worshiping yourself through me!!!

At the same time i pity you... Because you have no hope, you don't have Jesus and you don't even want to... And you need me to satisfy your needs which obviously i won't... YOU'RE JUST SO PATHETIC!!!

Whatever blasphemous crap you said, i just feel like yelling go to hell at you... But i know i shouldn't but i already did it in my heart... I know i'm a rebellious child, but sometimes i just can't take this shit anymore... Since you think you're such a wise man in your own freaking eyes, then just continue with it, maybe when you meet God, you will know how evil i am... And you can continue with your blasphemous craps because i don't feel like reproving you due to your wiseness and attitude... I know that i sound a lil self-righteous here, but i just can't take it...

O LORD, please help me to persevere through all these nonsense...

Heritage...

2011-05-14T22:38:00.001+08:00

54:1 “Sing, O barren one, who did not bear;

break forth into singing and cry aloud,

you who have not been in labor!

For the children of the desolate one will be more

than the children of her who is married,” says the Lord.

2 “Enlarge the place of your tent,

and let the curtains of your habitations be stretched out;

do not hold back; lengthen your cords

and strengthen your stakes.

3 For you will spread abroad to the right and to the left,

and your offspring will possess the nations

and will people the desolate cities.

4 “Fear not, for you will not be ashamed;

be not confounded, for you will not be disgraced;

for you will forget the shame of your youth,

and the reproach of your widowhood you will remember no more.

5 For your Maker is your husband,

the Lord of hosts is his name;

and the Holy One of Israel is your Redeemer,

the God of the whole earth he is called.

6 For the Lord has called you

like a wife deserted and grieved in spirit,

like a wife of youth when she is cast off,

says your God.

7 For a brief moment I deserted you,

but with great compassion I will gather you.

8 In overflowing anger for a moment

I hid my face from you,

but with everlasting love I will have compassion on you,”

says the Lord, your Redeemer.

9 “This is like the days of Noah [1] to me:

as I swore that the waters of Noah

should no more go over the earth,

so I have sworn that I will not be angry with you,

and will not rebuke you.

10 For the mountains may depart

and the hills be removed,

but my steadfast love shall not depart from you,

and my covenant of peace shall not be removed,”

says the Lord, who has compassion on you.

11 “O afflicted one, storm-tossed and not comforted,

behold, I will set your stones in antimony,

and lay your foundations with sapphires.

12 I will make your pinnacles of agate,

your gates of carbuncles,

and all your wall of precious stones.

13 All your children shall be taught by the Lord,

and great shall be the peace of your children.

14 In righteousness you shall be established;

you shall be far from oppression, for you shall not fear;

and from terror, for it shall not come near you.

15 If anyone stirs up strife,

it is not from me;

whoever stirs up strife with you

shall fall because of you.

16 Behold, I have created the smith

who blows the fire of coals

and produces a weapon for its purpose.

I have also created the ravager to destroy;

17 no weapon that is fashioned against you shall succeed,

and you shall confute every tongue that rises against you in judgment.

This is the heritage of the servants of the Lord

and their vindication from me, declares the Lord.”

Isaiah 54 is a very comforting and rejoicing passage... But there's no point in knowing without 53 because how can you rejoice when you don't know WHY you're rejoicing... Isaiah 53 was about a Servant who was wounded and marred beyond human semblance due to people who are like sheeps that have gone astray and yet God took the punishment on God Himself through the vivid details of the pain that this Servant went through... It is through this understanding of the undeservingness of us to be reconciled with the God whom we hated that we can rejoice... This is how we should rejoice in Isaiah 54 after looking at what this Servant a.k.a. Jesus has done for us...

And the bigness of this good news is seen in verse 1, saying that a barren woman which is a woman who can't bear children can SING out loud because of this good news!!! The greatest GOOD NEWS is in verse 4-7... It starts with God telling his people to be bold and not be ashamed of how we have mistreated God... And the reason for it is because God is OUR CREATOR, He knows us inside out and in knowing how filthy we are, He still called us to be His people and now He is with us... Because of this very reason we can now have the heritage of being a servant of the LORD... The picture of the heritage is painted nicely in 54... As we look forward to this HERITAGE, how should we respond to this good news?

'The Gospel Song'...

2011-04-25T01:54:00.003+08:00

Verse 1

Seems like everybodys full of self,
I wonder how they sleep at night.
When their lives comes first,
And the TRUTH comes second,
Just stop, for a minute and
Think

Why is everybody so rebellious!
Acting so damn innocent
You got your shades on your eyes
And your heels so high
That you can't even have a good
Time.

Pre-chorus.
Everybody look to their left (yeah)
Everybody look to their right (ha)
Can you see that (yeah)
God paid sins with blood that time...

Chorus:
It's not about our lives, our lives
God just needs His glory, glory, glory
We just deserve to be punished,
Forget about all our works.

Ain't about the (ha) Our-selves, Our-selves
Just about the (yeah) Gos-pel, Gos-pel
Wanna get our souls saved,
Forget about all our works.

Verse 2.

(Listen, Okay.)
We need to take it back in time,
When Jesus took God's wrath!
And it wasn't just dying on the cross,
He was also resurrected to rule.

Why is everybody so obsessed?
Nothing can buy us salvation.
If we all slow down and enjoy right now
Gurantee we'll be going
All dead.

Pre-chorus.
Everybody look to their left (yeah)
Everybody look to their right (ha)
Can you see that (yeah)
God paid sins with blood that time...

Chorus:
It's not about our lives, our lives
God just needs His glory, glory, glory
We just deserve to be punished,
Forget about all our works.

Ain't about the (ha) Our-selves, Our-selves
Just about the (yeah) Gos-pel, Gos-pel
Wanna get our souls saved,
Forget about all our works.

Yeah yeah
Well, keep the good works
And take the certs back
Just deny yourself and follow Jesus
And you can do nothing
Leave it all to God
And all we...
Yes all we need are Jesus and nothing
And guess what, everyone will die and meet God one day
Yes we leaving across these undefeatable odds
It's like this man, you can't live life for yourself
We do this for the love so we preach the gospel everyday
So we aint gon stumble and fall never
Waiting to see, a sign of defeat uh uh
So we gon keep everyone moving there feet
To bring back Jesus and everybody preach
It's not about

Chorus:
It's not about our lives, our lives
God just needs His glory, glory, glory
We just deserve to be punished,
Forget about all our works.

Ain't about the (ha) Our-selves, Our-selves
Just about the (yeah) Gos-pel, Gos-pel
Wanna get our souls saved,
Forget about all our works.

Chorus:
It's not about our lives, our lives
God just needs His glory, glory, glory
We just deserve to be punished,
Forget about all our works.

Ain't about the (ha) Our-selves, Our-selves
Just about the (yeah) Gos-pel, Gos-pel
Wanna get our souls saved,
Forget about all our works.

Modified from Jessie J's Price Tag...

A Self-Loving God...

2011-04-17T00:48:00.000+08:00

48:1 Hear this, O house of Jacob,
who are called by the name of Israel,
and who came from the waters of Judah,
who swear by the name of the Lord
and confess the God of Israel,
but not in truth or right.
2 For they call themselves after the holy city,
and stay themselves on the God of Israel;
the Lord of hosts is his name.
3 “The former things I declared of old;
they went out from my mouth, and I announced them;
then suddenly I did them, and they came to pass.
4 Because I know that you are obstinate,
and your neck is an iron sinew
and your forehead brass,
5 I declared them to you from of old,
before they came to pass I announced them to you,
lest you should say, ‘My idol did them,
my carved image and my metal image commanded them.’
6 “You have heard; now see all this;
and will you not declare it?
From this time forth I announce to you new things,
hidden things that you have not known.
7 They are created now, not long ago;
before today you have never heard of them,
lest you should say, ‘Behold, I knew them.’
8 You have never heard, you have never known,
from of old your ear has not been opened.
For I knew that you would surely deal treacherously,
and that from before birth you were called a rebel.
9 “For my name's sake I defer my anger,
for the sake of my praise I restrain it for you,
that I may not cut you off.
10 Behold, I have refined you, but not as silver;
I have tried you in the furnace of affliction.
11 For my own sake, for my own sake, I do it,
for how should my name be profaned?
My glory I will not give to another.

Isaiah 48 is so awesome!!! V1-2 is talking about how hypocrisy is found within God's very own people... Yeah, God's very own people being hypocrites man, how stupid is that? I think we can identify ourselves easily in our daily lives by claiming that we are doing everything for God's glory and honour or whatever, but when confronted with the question of picking up the cross and repent over your sins then we will know what Isaiah means in verse 1 'but not in truth or right'. The Israelites were confessing the God of Israel, but Isaiah says that they are not in truth or right even they're doing so, because they were being hypocrites!!!

v3-5 God declares all of His plan since the beginning because He knows that they're so stubborn that they won't obey. And He declared it long time ago, so that whenever His plans come to pass they will know it is God Himself that has purposed it to happen and not some useless god made up by humans(which kinda says that we are the gods ourselves). And this was just all the FORMER THINGS... Now that it is the present(at Isaiah's time) let's see if they will look back into history and learn from it...

v6-7 God is declaring something new to them in the same manner just that the content is a bit different. And God is also saying that it was just created not long ago so that you will not be self-righteous in saying that you already knew it long time ago. See how foolish we are?! When God declares something we don't listen, when He creates something new and declares it to us, we say that we knew it long time ago. This is where V8 comes in.

V8 says that you are so blinded because you never bothered to listen!!! And that's why God continues to say that 'For I knew that you would surely deal treacherously', yeap, God knew that we will screw everything up. Even before our parents met each other, we were already rebels. Obstinate, neck is an iron, forehead brass, super duper stubborn REBELS!!! This is the depravity of humanity that we were born rebellious. Thank God that He knew how foolish we are and He didn't do things according to our will or for our sake.

V9-11 Thank God for being God Himself that He does everything for His OWN Purpose and His OWN Sake, His OWN Glory. Thank God for defending and loving Himself!!! This might seem that God is very self-loving, but that's exactly the point. If God doesn't love Himself and loves/ defends something other than Himself that would be idolatrous!!! For goodness sake, we were told to glorify Him and if God Himself isn't seeking to glorify Himself then we wouldn't even be created in the very first place.

The Cross comes into the picture because of the special relationship between Jesus and God the Father. The PERFECT OBEDIENCE of the Son to follow the Father's will and plan. The LOVE of the Son towards the Father that He will do anything to glorify the Father and humble Himself. We, rebels are the beneficiaries of this super duper awesome unfathomable LOVE relationship between the Son and the Father.

If God is doing all this for our sake, then it simply means that God is putting us before God Himself. It's like God is serving us, which is what religiousity means, wanting God to serve us. Heck, I wouldn't want a useless weakling God like this, a Creator who has no rule and dominion over His very Own Creation doesn't deserve to be known!!!

Interesting question???

2011-03-27T00:08:00.002+08:00

Is it about how God changed your life or how you have changed your life for God???

It sounds the same, but the differences are pretty subtle I guess...

How has God changed your life?

- saved me from my sins

- made me have a better life

- might lead to taking God for granted since He HAS already changed me so it's enough

- continuing from there, might lead you to think that you are a Christian because God has done something amazing in your life and that's the so called 'gospel' you believe in

If you can understand some of the points that have been stated, I hope that you can see all these will only lead to a man-centered gospel instead of the TRUE GOSPEL...

How have I changed my life for God?

- Jesus brought me back to God so I need to live a life pleasing to Him

- struggling a lot because you know that you're justified but you still sin

- so there's a lot to change in my life

Well, even though I didn't really answer the question but I think the differences are very obvious already... The focus of the 1st question is about you whereas the 2nd question is diminishing self and trying very hard to exalt God...

Hope you can learn something from it... Totally have no idea why these 2 questions came into my mind and just feel like sharing it...

Questions to ponder...

2011-03-16T22:32:00.000+08:00

Questions to ponder(took it from Kevin DeYoung):

What is the biggest problem in the church: people can’t stand us or we can’t stand the gospel?

What is the goal of theology: to paint an attractive picture of Jesus or to say what God has already said?

What is our biggest failure: we’ve turned people off or we’ve compromised our beliefs?

Does the future of evangelicalism lie with progressives who can adapt and change or with conservatives who remain faithful to the old paths?

Are Christians today basically too mean or too cowardly? Is our God too big and scary or too small and puny?

Earthquake + Tsunami = Awakening...

2011-03-13T22:24:00.003+08:00

Tsunami, earthquakes, death tolls and many more... The very next question that comes up is why did an all-loving God had to do this... Well, before that, have you ever asked God why is the weather so good before all this happened, why are we on Earth, why did you make us, who is God and many more questions... You might be saying that why am I ranting all these nonsense when this disaster just took thousands of lives... But the reason to it is because God is the one who is in control!!!

By you asking the 1st question when these kind of disasters happen, you're already limiting God to a being that will only save you from natural disasters... Truth be told, God is so much more than this, if you're only seeing God like that, basically you're only making God up in your own head which is not the true God who is the Creator of the universe...

It just shocked me when I saw a video footage from the news just now... The wave can carry a boat just like that and crash it to the roads in the city... It sends chills down my bones!!! Especially when I know why and who is doing all this... This is just like Isaiah when God uses Assyria- His rod of anger to whack His OWN PEOPLE- Israel for their own sake!!! It's to make them turn back to God!!! The same thing applies in this case... Since people start to question why did an all-loving God had to do this, then might as well you dig deeper and find out who God is...

And another shocking thing was that there were some conflicts between the Japanese and Chinese now, dating back to the Nanjing Massacre... Here is a post that I happen to come across from Facebook: http://dreamsinapie.tumblr.com/post/3816948641/translated-message-from-a-chinese-sendai-tsunami Seriously, how fallen can we be??? I have no idea... Amidst of all these sufferings, you still want to care about your own freaking vengeance?! Seriously?! Humanity has lost its way to a new level I guess(or maybe it was only my ignorance to not notice such thing)... But the writer got 1 thing right, yes, this is indeed mankind's karma in a sense that we so deserve it!!! We even deserve HELL, what more just a mere tsunami... And this tsunami is supposed to turn you back to Him... So wake up folks!!!

And yes, before God, do we still have racial difference??? Heck no!!! In fact, we're equally same, equally sinful, equally hell deserving people!!! This is a wake up call from Him to turn back to Him, to know who God is!!! So, get up now!!!

Earthquake of your life...

2011-03-12T00:48:00.002+08:00

As of now, I think everyone knows that few hours ago Japan had a 8.9 magnitude earthquake and tsunami as well...

Immediately, I just can't help but think of Isaiah 40:6-8. Here it goes:

6 A voice says, “Cry!”
And I said, “What shall I cry?”
All flesh is grass,
and all its beauty is like the flower of the field.
7 The grass withers, the flower fades
when the breath of the Lord blows on it;
surely the people are grass.
8 The grass withers, the flower fades,
but the word of our God will stand forever.

And guess what... These 3 verses comes right after God comforts His own people because they have no perfect king to lead them... And these 3 verses gives an even greater comfort by saying the only person you should trust is God because He knows what He is doing and His Word stands forever!!!

But something that I learnt from camp came back to me again, which is to hold everything loosely... Well, I guess the earthquake pretty much explains why you should hold them loosely... It's because it won't last, and the only thing that can last is the Word of God!!! If you hold on to those things, try imagining what will happen to you when an 'earthquake' shatters all of them...

Let's say you're very proud of every single thing you do... What happens when something you did fails??? Will you still be proud of yourself??? So, consider what to hold on and what not to hold on, for it might be disastrous when it happens...

May God open up your heart to let you seek Him...

IMPORTANT!!!

2011-03-06T00:01:00.000+08:00

An Open Letter to Seekers

Reprinted with permission from Moody Publishers, this is the Appendix (“A Letter to ‘Seekers’”) of David Clotfelter’s book, Sinners in the Hands of a Good God: Reconciling Divine Judgment and Mercy (Moody, 2004), pp. 266-274.

I understand the Bible to say that until we are reborn we do not, in the deepest sense, seek God. We may seek His blessings; we may even seek salvation; but God Himself we reject.

Nevertheless, it is common today to refer to those who are interested in knowing more about the Christian faith as “seekers,” and since it is possible that the reader may fall into that category, I would like to say a little about the implications of the topic of this book for you.

First, I hope you will not become angry with me for speaking to you plainly and bluntly about spiritual matters. If I suggest to you that you are currently lost and in need of Christ, I do not intend by this any disrespect for you as a person. On the contrary, it is because I care about you that I speak as I do. I would like to be of service to you.

Are You a Christian?

Let’s begin by trying to determine whether you are already a Christian. Many people are deceived about their standing with God, supposing themselves to be Christians when, in fact, they are not. Others are simply uncertain and perhaps feel anxious and worried about how God views them. The Bible tells us that we are to make every effort to make our calling and election sure, and so it is only reasonable to try to determine how we can be certain of our spiritual state. I will first mention some things that do not indicate that we are genuinely converted, and then some that do.

False Evidence

On the negative side, a person is not a Christian simply because he or she is born into a Christian family, or baptized into a Christian church, or because he or she joins a church. This is an important point, because millions of people have been deceived with the idea that their baptism or christening as a child, or their membership in a church as an adult, automatically puts them in God’s good graces.

Such people often have next to no knowledge of the Christian faith, and nothing in their behavior to suggest that Christ is, in fact, important to them. Yet if you ask them if they are Christians, they will very confidently answer that they are. When I was converted I happened to tell one of my professors that I had become a Christian. His puzzled response was, “Well, what were you before?” He apparently took it for granted that everybody born in America is automatically Christian.

But it is not so. Christian conversion is a spiritual matter. A Christian is a person who has entered into a new relationship with God. Christians have been forgiven their sins, and they have been declared by God to be His children. Their hearts have been changed by His Spirit, and they have within them a love for God and a heartfelt desire to please Him. These things do not come by birth or baptism but only by spiritual rebirth. “Truly, truly, I say to you,” said Jesus, “unless one is born again he cannot see the kingdom of God” (John 3:3).

Another way people are deceived is by thinking that because they have raised their hand in an evangelistic meeting or gone forward to kneel at an altar, they can take their salvation for granted. The problem here is that there are many possible motives for responding to an evangelistic appeal other than a true Spirit-wrought change in the heart. Perhaps you raised your hand one day to “receive Christ.” You knew that was what your parents wanted you to do, and you didn’t want to disappoint them. Or maybe all your friends were going forward, and you didn’t want to be left out. Or maybe you were moved by the story of Christ’s death, or by some other story the speaker told, and your public response was simply a reaction to the emotional power of the message. Or again, maybe the speaker presented his appeal in such a way that you found yourself desiring some benefit that Christ can bring, and your response was an expression of your desire for that benefit rather than for Christ Himself.

Sad to say, the gospel is often presented in terms such as these: “Are you lonely? Christ can become your best friend. Are you fearful? Christ can take away your fears. Do you want power to overcome your bad habits? Christ can give you power. Now, don’t you want Christ?” A person may listen to that type of message and make a public response to it without, perhaps, ever understanding anything at all about his or her own sin, the meaning of Christ’s death, and the nature of true faith.

Your decision to go forward and “give your life to Christ” may have been based on a completely inadequate understanding of the commitment you were being asked to make, with the result that you have lived for years in a condition of disappointment, feeling that promises were made to you that have never been fulfilled. Perhaps the problem is that you are not yet a Christian.

One other way we deceive ourselves is by supposing that spiritual “experience” is what shows that we stand in God’s good graces. Mormons encourage potential converts to pray that God will show them the truth of Mormon doctrine by causing them to experience a “burning” sensation in their hearts. People involved in New Age religion are inclined to place great emphasis on their ability to make contact with beings in the invisible spirit realm. Some people build a religious faith not on God and Christ but on angels, and they suppose that the experiences they have apparently had of angelic visitations prove that they are at peace with God.

This, too, must be rejected as deceptive and inadequate. It is not that the non-Christian who claims to have had a spiritual experience is necessarily wrong in that belief. The problem, rather, is that apart from the testimony of the Bible, there is no way of being sure that the experience is from God. One popular author claims to be receiving her theology straight from a woman dead several hundred years. I don’t know whether she is in contact with a spiritual being, is deluding herself, or is deliberately lying. What I do know is that her theology is completely at odds with the Bible, and so even if she is indeed having some sort of genuine spiritual experience, it has not reconciled her to the true God.

You may think of yourself as a “spiritual” person, but beware: The only spirituality the Bible recognizes as genuine is one that is focused on Jesus Christ and guided by His teaching and that of His apostles. If you put your confidence in your supposed experiences, those experiences may wind up costing you your soul.

True Evidence

Now let’s look at the matter from a positive perspective. What constitutes true and adequate evidence that a person is a Christian? In one sense, the answer to this question is both brief and simple: A person is a Christian if he or she believes in Jesus. “Believe in the Lord Jesus, and you will be saved” (Acts 16:31). What connects us to the grace of God is faith. A person who has faith in Christ is, by definition, a believer. And whoever believes in Christ has already passed from death to life and has been forgiven all of his sins.

The problem, of course, is in defining faith. What constitutes true faith, and how does such faith make its presence known? If we don’t take time to think about this question, we may deceive ourselves, thinking we believe when really we do not.

So what does faith look like? Well, first, it has an intellectual component to it. In order to believe rightly in Jesus, we have to know who He is, what He did, and what His actions have to do with us. We need to believe that:

He is the eternal Son of God, fully divine and also fully human;
He lived a sinless life, and His perfect obedience to God is credited to those who trust Him, giving them the right to eternal life in God’s eyes;
His death on the cross was for the sins of the world, and all who trust in Him are forgiven their sins on the basis of that death;
Jesus rose from the dead and now lives forever, and through the Holy Spirit He is present to all of His followers in all places and times; and
a day of judgment will come, and only those who have placed their faith in Christ will be acquitted and given eternal life in heaven. Others will spend eternity in hell.

Many people who do not believe these things at all nevertheless claim to be Christians, but it is hard to see that there is any basis to their claim. Jesus taught all these doctrines, and it is manifestly dishonest to call oneself a follower of Christ if one denies them.

Faith, of course, requires more than intellectual understanding. The Bible reminds us that even the devils have an intellectual understanding of the gospel, but they obviously are not in a right relationship with God. To intellectual understanding we must add the assent of the will. That is, we must not merely believe that these things are true; we must be willing that they be true. You see, it is possible for a person to become persuaded that Jesus is the only Savior of the world and yet hate that fact. He may be intellectually convinced that without Christ he will perish eternally and yet be unwilling to change his life to bring it into accordance with that truth. His mind is convinced, but his heart is still in rebellion. Such a person is not a Christian.

And there is still more. To intellectual understanding and the assent of the will we must add another element of faith: actual personal trust in Christ. A Christian (1) believes that Jesus is the Savior of the world, (2) has no desire to deny or rebel against that truth, and (3) has placed all of his or her hope for salvation in Jesus alone.

A true follower of Christ is convinced that if God judges him according to his own deeds he will be eternally condemned; so with the hymn writer he says, “Nothing in my hands I bring/simply to Thy cross I cling.” And he means it! He would be no more willing to appear before God without the imputed righteousness of Christ than he would be to attempt to swim across the Pacific Ocean. From the heart he says, “Christ is a perfect Savior for sinners. I am a sinner. I will look to Him and Him alone for my salvation.”

A Changed Heart

This is faith, and faith is all that is needed to connect us to the salvation offered us in Christ. But because we are so prone to fool ourselves, it is important to know that if our faith is genuine, it will show itself in important and discernible ways. The Bible says of Christians that God has poured out His love into our hearts, and it would be very strange if that outpouring of divine love made no difference in the way we feel and act. If we genuinely believe in Jesus, then we will find, for example, that we have growing pleasure in knowing God through Him. We will enjoy reading the Bible. We will enjoy praying to God in Christ’s name. We will enjoy worshiping God and being with the people of God.

Our enjoyment in these things may vary in intensity depending on what else is happening in our lives, but we will have enough pleasure in our relationship with God to convince us that we are His and He is ours.

Similarly, if our faith is genuine, we will have a growing desire to see Christ glorified in our lives, in the lives of other people, and throughout the world. Our reasoning will be something like this:

“The God who has saved me is a great and wonderful God, and His Christ is a great and wonderful Savior. I want the world to know that I believe in Jesus, and I want other people to see Jesus in me and come to faith in Him because of me. I also want people everywhere to know about Christ and believe in Him, and I will do everything in my power to spread His fame throughout the world.”

Again, our passion for God’s glory may burn more brightly at some times than at others; but if we are real Christians, it will not burn out.

One more evidence of faith needs to be mentioned: A true Christian will always have a desire for personal holiness. We will want to obey God’s Law to the best of our abilities. We will find that we are still unable to comply fully with God’s Law, but we will have a heartfelt desire to do so. We will do everything in our power to remove all known sin from our lives, and when we are unable to overcome a sinful habit, we will find ourselves pleading with God to take it away from us.

This means that we will hate sin and love righteousness. Our prayers, once focused on asking God for various physical blessings, such as health, protection, or success, will now center on our holy Lord and our striving to become like Him.

Now let me again make this matter personal: Are you in fact a Christian? Do you believe in Christ, and is the genuine nature of your faith proved by its fruits? Does my description of Christian faith cause you to rejoice and say, “Yes, that’s me!” or does it cause uneasiness or even anger in your heart?

Be honest with yourself. There is no sense in ducking the issue or pretending to be what you are not.

A Word of Warning

Let’s assume you have answered the question in the negative—either you recognize that you plainly are not a Christian or else you see that you have insufficient evidence to prove that you are a Christian.

Please bear with me as I give you a word of warning.

Great Danger

You are in very great danger. You are a sinner, and God is angry with you for your sin. God holds you responsible for your every violation of His Law throughout your life, and He has stated plainly and solemnly that unless your sins are forgiven through Christ, you will pay the penalty for them through an eternity of suffering in hell. God will accept no excuses. You will not get away with blaming your sins on your parents, on Satan, or on God Himself. The sincerity of your false beliefs and wrong way of life will not purchase your forgiveness.

If you do not repent and believe in Christ, you will die in your sins and be lost forever.

Furthermore, your plight is made all the worse because you are morally unable to repent and believe unless God first gives you the power to do so. I do not say that you are physically unable to believe. God has not put any barrier in your way to prevent you from coming to Christ. The problem lies in your own will: You can’t come to Christ because you do not want to. Yes, you may well want some of the benefits of being a Christian. You may want to know that your sins are forgiven. You may want assurance that you will go to heaven. You may want the confidence that God will be with you throughout your life and through eternity. You may want the peace of knowing that God hears your prayers.

Not Yet Condemned, But . . .

But your problem is that while you want various things from God, you do not want God Himself. You do not want to submit to His authority in your life. You do not want to suffer the indignity of confessing your sins to Him and admitting your absolute need for Christ’s intercession for you. You do not want the inconvenience and shame of being Jesus’ disciple.

How can I know this? Because if you did want these things, you would have them already, since nothing stands in your way but your own will. The fact that you do not have them is proof that you do not want them, and your lack of desire for them makes it impossible that you should receive them. You are bound for hell, and it is by your own choice.

God has not yet condemned you, but you are in the process of condemning yourself, and unless God intervenes to save you, you will be lost. God requires you to trust in Christ, but you don’t want to trust in Him. God requires you to love Christ, but in your heart of hearts you despise Him.

Now maybe what I am saying is completely untrue of you. Maybe you are a Christian after all. If so, rejoice! But be honest with yourself. Do you love God or not? If not, then do not deceive yourself that He is reconciled to you or that you have it in your power to turn your hatred of Him into love. To put the matter in biblical terms, you are dead in your sins and transgressions. You are by nature an object of God’s wrath, without hope and without God in this world (Eph. 2:1–3; 12). God has full power to save you from your guilt and from your enmity toward Him, but only He has that power. If He saves you, you will be saved. If He does not, you will be lost.

Look to Christ

What then? If you are in a lost condition and are unable to believe in Christ as your Savior, what are you to do? Should you give up hope of being saved? Should you reason that if it all depends on the action of God, you might as well be passive? By no means! You cannot save yourself, but that does not mean that there is nothing you can do. You can look to Christ, confess to Him your depravity, admit your inability to love Him or even rightly believe in Him, and ask Him to mercifully change your bad heart to a good one.

You could pray such words of humble petition as these:

“Lord Jesus! I am not capable of loving You. I dread the loss of control involved in giving up my life to You. I hate the honesty involved in confessing that I am a sinner who cannot be saved other than by Your death on the cross. I do not want to submit my will to Yours. I do not want the shame of being known as Your follower.
“And yet, I also do not want to perish! I do not want to face an eternity of suffering for my sins. I do not want to experience the implacable and everlasting wrath of almighty God. I do not want to have lived in vain. I do not want to be lost, separated from You forever.
“And so, Lord Jesus, help me! Take away my heart of stone and give me a new heart, a good heart, one that will love You and love God. Change me from within; make me a new person; enable me to believe; cause me to love. If You leave me alone, I will damn myself. If You stand back and do not help me, I will use my free will to make a wreck of my existence. Do not abandon me! Have mercy on me, for the sake of Your own glorious grace. Amen.”

The Means of Grace

Friend, you cannot save yourself, but you can speak to God in this way. And there is more you can do. You can begin to make use of the means God normally uses to bring people to faith. You can read the Bible. You can pray. You can attend church. You can listen to biblical preaching. You can ask others to pray for you. I cannot guarantee that if you do these things, God will grant you faith and repentance. If I could offer such a guarantee, it would be tantamount to saying that you can, after all, save yourself. God reserves to Himself the right and power to save, and He will not share His glory with us, even if only by granting us the power to save ourselves by confessing that we cannot save ourselves! You are in His hands.

I can, however, tell you this. If you have read this far, and you find within yourself a willingness to pray along the lines I have suggested and to avail yourself of the means of grace I have listed, then it is very, very likely that the Spirit of God is already at work in you and that He plans to display His mercy in you by saving you.

As one great theologian has written,

“It is true that no man can regenerate himself, even although he hears and receives God’s Word. But God is prepared to come to those who come to him by the way he has told them. He meets souls where he says he will meet them.”

And the greatest of all theologians, the Lord Jesus Christ Himself, has invited us with these words: “Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you” (Matt. 7:7).

So take heart! Perhaps this is the very day of your salvation. But do not rest until you are sure. Ask until you know you have received the power to trust Christ. Seek until you have found peace with God. Knock until you know that the door has been opened and you have entered in.

Copied this from TGC...

Pain...

2011-03-01T20:15:00.002+08:00

There's just so much pain(not physically) in me now but I don't know how to express it!!! All I can do is to trust in God... For who am I a finite being to complain to an infinite being like You my God... Whatever it is, it is your plan that will be laid out... Soli Deo Gloria...

Theology...

2011-02-20T21:22:00.003+08:00

Theology- no one on Earth can claim to not know anything about it... Perhaps I should explain what it means 1st... theology n. , pl. , -gies . The study of the nature of God and religious truth; rational inquiry into religious questions. Get it now??? Basically the whole existence of homo sapiens can be categorized into two: the ones with the right theology and the ones that are wrong...

There are subtypes for those who are wrong, either they have their very own pagan beliefs or they don't bother... You might ask why bother... This is where the ones who are right comes in... That's because the very fact that God MADE life and He revealed Himself and He was involved in every single bit of historical event that you know of is sufficient for you to wonder if you should know what's actually going on...

In your entire life on Earth, be it 100 years old or 10, you have 2 chances to turn back to God... The 1st one is when you're still alive on Earth, and you acknowledge that you have rebelled against your Creator your whole life and you failed to glorify Him as He deserves and THE ONLY way is Jesus dying on the cross for you and He resurrected so that you can have fellowship with Him in heaven...

The other one will be when you're dead, you'll face eternal condemnation from God because you have never turned back to God... The irony is that now that you're in hell, you really want to turn back to God and you feel like He's the very thing that you have, BUT guess what, God is not there for you... No matter how hard you shout or yell, He will not bother... Because you already had a chance to cling on to Him with whatever amount of time you have on Earth but you didn't... And so this is a just action for God to do...

So, why wait when you have the chance to repent now???

Wisdom...

2011-02-20T00:32:00.003+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH... After coming back from camp on WISDOM, there's just so many things to workout!!! Man, being a Christian on Earth is just so darn hard!!! Making WISE decisions that will PLEASE God is just insane!!! But, still need to do it!!!

Bet some of you out there never even thought of pleasing your what-so-ever gods you have in your own life, moreover making wise decisions... And maybe because you just don't give a damn about who God is and what He demands of you... Because all you want from your so called god is that he can help you in ways that you want and whenever it doesn't work out you'll blame god for not making it happen... But maybe that's the very reason why things in your life just doesn't work out...(this doesn't mean that when things work out in your life you know god)

The worst thing a folly can do is to not know how foolish he is...

God, please grant us foolish people some wisdom to live a life pleasing to You...

Reminders...

2011-01-20T18:24:00.004+08:00

After a long discussion on ministry today, there's just so much work to do(not that I didn't know before this)...

I need to constantly remind myself of these few things while doing ministry...

1. Ministry is not a heroic act, we work as a team!!! Whether you're alone out there or what, you still need help from your brothers and sisters to jump in when you're dying...

2. Ministry is to build Jesus' church, not for your own respective church or for your own fame...

3. Whatever happens, God is still sovereign and the Holy Spirit will work in the individual to change...

4. Approach people with humility... Must remind myself of the judgment on the arrogance of Assyria in Isaiah 10 and John Newton's quote: I am not what I ought to be, I am not what I want to be, I am not what I hope to be in another world; but still I am not what I once used to be, and by the grace of God I am what I am... So there's absolutely nothing to be proud of even if your 'theological level' is higher because it's the Holy Spirit's work after all...

5. Must not act like Peter in John(forgot which chapter)... I shall not be the Peter that will lay his life down for Jesus(in that context) and chopped the soldier's ear in order to protect Jesus... Because none of these battles are personal, the world hates Jesus anyways...

6. Do everything for God's glory and not mine or anyone else...

7. Must think theologically and look at the bigger picture- Jesus' church... Theology, Reflection, Practice!!!

Please rebuke me if I ever forget any 1 of these...

Soli Deo Gloria!!!

God is good to me!!!

2011-01-18T20:33:00.003+08:00

Woohoo!!! God is good man!!! haha... Haven't been evangelizing or flyering for quite a long period(yes, rebuke me) and did it today!!! So fun!!!

Well, it was pretty good to walk around the campuses and give out flyers to people, but never had the chance to talk much about it... I met this Korean guy who is a Christian and said that his church is looking for other churches to work with them and he even gave me his church's flyer and a paper of the way they share the gospel... It's pretty encouraging to meet this kind of people but guess what, this is a Korean guy and he is doing all these, where are all the Malaysians who call themselves evangelicals??? Though their gospel did include sin and judgment and stuffs, but there's still something understandings that needs to be fixed... Oh well, at least they're trying to preach the gospel which is better than evangelicals who change the gospel into some kind of blessing for those in need...

Another amazing thing happened when I was in the train, I saw this chinese guy reading a chinese version of Purpose Driven Life... I knew I had to do something and suddenly I remembered that I have an emergency flyer in my bible... I took it out but hesitated because I don't really know how to share the gospel in chinese... yes yes all my sinful excuses... As I continue to hesitate, he started to talk on the phone... And man, it was a long conversation, so I started to slap myself in the face(literally) because I failed to do my job!!! So in order to 'redeem' myself, I planned to follow him till his destination even if it means that I have to make 1 big round to come back for the sake of the gospel because there was no sign of him ending the conversation... Guess what, he was heading to Sentral which was where I'm supposed to go... So he ended the conversation as the train arrived at Sentral and I chased him just to give him the flyer and invite him to church...

God is good to me because He has given me people that needs to hear about Jesus!!! Whether or not they will come to church is dependent of God's sovereignty but I've done my part and thanks be to God for giving me such a fruitful day...

Praise the LORD for all that happened today!!!

P/S: If you thought what you will expect me to write in this post based on the title is something like God is good to me because He gave me some kind of blessing, then here's a question for you to think about: Would you want to go to heaven if God were not there, only His gifts???

FWC 2011...

2011-01-09T23:21:00.003+08:00

What is truth??? In this current era, most of things we see are relative to something else, so how are we basing our judgment on??? And knowing how foolish we are, how can you even know what you're judging is correct, and maybe what you're basing on is also wrong as well...

So then, what really is truth??? Do you even bother to know it??? As I have said earlier, we are flawed beings, so if we are to know truth based on what we know or experience then it will be very subjective and hence becomes relative again isn't it???

If there isn't any transcendency to reveal all these, then we will still be stucked in our own fantasy of relativism right??? And we are all products of modernity, meaning influenced by culture and all kind of stuffs so then it just proves that we can never really trust our very own judgment because culture is made by you and me...

Therefore in the end, God alone is THE TRUTH because He is transcendent and yet He fully revealed Himself through the bible and Jesus Christ... Well, I wish I can tell more about it but I still have to work on it because I still can't fully grasp it yet...

And my view of ministry has just changed... Before FWC, I thought that there was only prosperity gospel which is heretical, but then what I found in FWC is that heresies can be as subtle as like saying that all these are for God-glorifying purposes, but in the end it isn't... It just depresses and scares me to know that this world is just getting more gloomy and dark...

Well, another thing I've learnt is that ministry is not just about bible-preaching but you are also building that person's theological framework... Theology, Reflections, Practice is what I need to make as a habit!!!

All these are bits and pieces of what I learnt from FWC- The Gospel and Truth right after exam on Thursday till Saturday... I shall never forget these 3 days I had in 'heaven'!!! Seeing so many gospel-centered evangelicals especially people from FOCUS, Australia just gives you a glimpse of light that there are still some people out there who's on your side in preaching the gospel and doing God's faithful ministry but then, it just ain't enough!!!

I pray that I can see more growth in people to come to realization that THE TRUTH needs to be shared because it is THE Truth not A Truth!!!

Speechless...

2010-12-22T21:00:00.003+08:00

I feel very sad today... Not because of exams which is in less than 2 weeks time but because of my conversations with my mom... I've been trying really hard to show her what Christianity really means since don't know when and yes it might be because I never rely and trust in God that He will work in her, but I just don't know what more to say...

Every time she will bring back the same arguments and it just makes me wonder whether she really got and thought about what we talked the previous time... The gospel is just so clear and logical despite the IWoG, that I don't know how to add on to what I had just said anymore...

If only my tears can win unrepentant hearts for You, I'd go blind daily... I really wish that this could happen... Oh well, God is sovereign...

And I seriously have no idea how the heck can someone live without God... Yes, you might feel good when you sin after all who would like to be controlled by someone else, but in knowing God, there's a greater joy than everything else, and best of all you actually have nothing to lose... By sinning, you lose everything... You lose your true identity and purpose of being on Earth...

This Advent season is just really driving me crazy in a good theological way that I just keep thanking God for His IWoG of sending His own Son- The Man Jesus Christ to die for our sins...

Food for thought: Did God send His own Son to the cross just to cleanse our sinful flesh??? This sounds so man-centered, or is there a bigger picture to it???

After pondering over this, I hope that you will view the cross in a different way... That's what I learnt from John and Isaiah thus far...

Working FOR YOUR Salvation

2010-12-12T11:51:00.012+08:00

Most people will think that this is possible without knowing that they're saying that in their hearts... Let me just clarify 1 simple term, SALVATION... Well, salvation basically means the act of saving or protecting from harm, risk, loss,destruction(from dictionary.com)... Ok, let's be frank on this, where do you this can happen to you??? There's definitely ain't no place like this on Planet Earth!!! So, this place should be heaven right??? I'm not equating salvation to heaven but this is just to simplify things and I bet most of you are definitely thinking in that...

Now, IF you want to work for salvation or to get into heaven, how can you do it??? Well, the answer you can think of is probably by doing good works which is correct... BUT, here comes the problem, what kind of works are good and what the heck is GOOD?! Let me assume that all of us have a common understanding that good things are to obey the law and stuff, but how do you fit heaven into this picture... Here's a simple example of what I'm hitting on, just imagine that you're applying to get a job, all of your preparations and interviews has to be done to secure your place of getting that job right??? So you can see that in order to get a job, all the procedures that has to be done are all job-related, logical la...

I hope that in your mind at least the concept of heaven you must have is that there's God's presence... So, based on the example above, in order to get into heaven a.k.a the place where God is, what kind of work do you think you CAN DO to get there??? God-related works la!!!

I bet most of you out there don't even know who God is in the 1st place, so why do you even bother to do what you're doing now??? Because it ain't getting you to heaven which means you're definitely going SOMEWHERE(I think you know where it is)...

I'm not saying that once you know God, you can start working your way to heaven... I know this sounds contradicting but just try to grasp what I'm saying... You can't work your way to heaven just by knowing God because you just DON'T WANT to listen to Him moreover TO WORK FOR HIM!!! For goodness sake, we can't even understand God properly, how can we know what He wants us to do... That is why Jesus came to Earth!!! To reveal who God is, what He wants us to do, and to give life a.k.a. heaven and bring judgment a.k.a. hell... Thankfully, we DON'T HAVE TO WORK for our SALVATION, otherwise we'd be doomed to destruction before we even try to find out who God is...

You might know say that by knowing Jesus and doing all that He said can get you into heaven a.k.a legalism, BUT then you're just missing the whole point of Jesus dying on the cross for your idiotic sins!!! He came to show us what we're supposed to do which is to glorify God and how we have always failed to do so... Then the consequence of accepting or rejecting this truth falls in... AND NEVER THE OTHER WAY ROUND!!! By believing in Jesus to get you to heaven, you're no different from those who believe in Jesus' signs... Because the importance of the signs are not the actions but the arrow that the signs are pointing to which is Jesus is The Christ, The Son Of God!!!

And we are to live like Jesus because this is how it should be... We, creations should glorify our Creator in every single aspect of our life!!! In heaven, we will be worshipping God, so we should also live life on Earth like heaven in a sense that we should keep honoring God for who He is and not to want to get to heaven because you'll be missing the point!!!

May God help you seek Truth...

Feeling Isaiah 6!!!

2010-12-11T00:21:00.002+08:00

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!! I feel like Isaiah in chapter 6 right now!!! I was relying on my own bloody sinful strength to evangelize!!! What the heck was I even thinking?! A mere man who can't even understand God properly and uses his own limited knowledge to evangelize and relies on it?!

So thankful that I was able to see where I went wrong... Yet again, thankful for the grace that was given to me...

May God be glorified...

Free lunch...

2010-12-04T00:26:00.002+08:00

There's no free lunch in this world!!! Sounds familiar??? I'm sure you have heard this a dozen of times... Come to think of it, how true is this statement??? Through our logical and experiential-based mind, this is a proper and 100000000000% correct statement... By FREE I mean totally not expecting anything in return, therefore it's called free, and LUNCH meaning any substance or whatever that can be offered by someone to you... Try taking a step back and think of the following situations... I'm definitely not saying that they're illogical though...

On your birthdays thus far, I bet you've accumulated tons of gifts, but have you ever asked those who gave you the presents, how much was it??? You might say that they might ask favors from you in the future... Based on the amount of presents they gave you till this age, do you think there's any favor in the world that can repay back their sincerity??? You might want to question their sincerity, but if they weren't sincere in the 1st place, they wouldn't have endured such 'great pain' in putting up masks just to please you for years in order to ask for your help... There you go, evidence of 'free lunch'...

Have you ever wondered why were you delivered into this world??? Why would a woman knowing that she will bear the most unbearable pain in this entire God-made-universe to give birth to a tiny little 'demon' like us??? Especially it has to last through 9 months of suffering and cautiousness in taking care of her own body to sustain this puny life of ours... Let's say in some miraculous way, the baby that just came out of the womb can talk instantly, do you expect that little thing to ask the woman how much was it??? NEVER!!! Now is this 'free lunch'??? Just an add on to this undefeatable case of 'free lunch', that woman would give in everything to protect that small and precious thing of hers even it takes up her life...

Are the above examples categorized as 'free lunch'??? Yes... That's because they are so priceless that you just can't measure it... Are they the most logical and rational thing to do??? This you should think about it yourself...

Now, there's even something greater than all these... The best 'free lunch' in the world or rather amazing grace(grace means unmerited GIFT, which I don't think it is sufficient to describe this) is God's love!!! Do you know why??? Let me tell you... God the Creator who made everything, sees us as rulers of the world... But we, sinful depraved Satan follower human beings, just like to be our own gods with our own lives... We just like to do things our own way because we like to control, I mean who doesn't want to??? My destiny is in my hands right??? And that is how we failed to live up to God's standard and we might not even tried to live it... Some of us might say that we believe in the EXISTENCE of God, but then do you really mean it??? Do you even know who He is??? If not, then do you still say you believe in Him??? Or are you just making up your very own image of god to suit your bloody needs???

In seeing what kind of deep shit we are in, there was a Man that came to solve this problem of the fallen world... And He was sent by God the Father HIMSELF... We totally had nothing to do with it in a sense that we never wanted Him to come anyways... This Man is Jesus!!! He solved our foolishness by dying in our place on the cross... And He never asked anything from us, other than following Him, so that we too, can have fellowship with Him... Be remembered that, it was God the Father Himself who sent Jesus even though we never wanted Him and continued to rebel against God... That's the supremacy of God's love!!! The ULTIMATE FREE LUNCH!!! Again, if we were to try to repay it, then we're just missing the point!!! Well, even now, this truth has been preached to so many people, but some of them are still rejecting and suppressing the truth... It just shows you how much we really don't want God in our lives and we just want to take charge of our so called destiny... Try imagining those days before Jesus came... What state was it then... I don't think there's any difference though...

Just to clarify, submitting and living your life for Jesus is NOT a way of repaying God's grace... Instead it is the most natural reflex action that we can give... It's like you've been living in a sick and filthy place for your whole life, suddenly someone asks you to follow him for a better life, what more can you do other than to work for him???

Christmas is coming up... The day when Jesus The Christ was born... So what are you going to do about this 'free lunch'???

May God soften your heart to let you in to His Kingdom...

Rebuke me please!!!

2010-12-01T23:49:00.002+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...!!! I HAVE NO BLOODY MOOD TO STUDY!!! Please rebuke me!!! Thinking bout ministry and Christmas just makes me feel high and it makes me fly so high up to heaven that I just don't feel like coming back to this sinful place anymore!!! hahaha...

This is how joyful it is to work for God though not denying that studying is also a form of service to God... But I'm just so excited about all these stuffs...

LORD, I seriously need Your help to make me study!!!

Fun week...

2010-11-29T22:02:00.002+08:00

The past week has been good, even though I don't really like staying in KKB... The coolest thing was I stayed at 4 different places!!! Stayed at KKB, Elden's house, pastor's house and Albert's house!!!

Friday night after posting, went straight to KTM with a few of them to go to Elden's house and played at CC till 2.30am... After that had a talk with Elden till 4.30am... The next day, went for TGG then stayed over at Robin Gan's place and talked till 2am...hahaha!!! so fun!!! Then on Sunday, after sermon, went to Seremban to Albert's house so that Iyngaran can fetch us to KKB on Monday morning...

Sunday's sermon was on Isaiah 1... ISAIAH!!! Even having read it during word works, but it still scares the hell out of me when you see how God judges people and how God uses people and then judging them again... Basically, unless you rely and put your trust in God, otherwise you're just waiting to be thrown away from Him...

Reformation Sunday...

2010-10-31T23:14:00.003+08:00

Ahhhhhhhhh!!! LORD, please help Malaysia... Lol, Jesus has already saved us from God's wrath and what greater help am I still asking for...so stupid...

Just spent 20 minutes listening to a 'sermon'... It was more of a counselling session I would say... I wasted some time reading Phillipians 3 while waiting for the video of that 'sermon' to load... Guess what, the 'pastor' or rather counsellor, didn't even use his bible... That's why I said I wasted my time reading the text...

The whole session was pressing on 'believe', which he didn't mention believe in what... Though he did mention once that believe in God that He has greater dreams for you, so forget your past... I didn't even hear anything about Jesus... And he keeps on mentioning God for no reason...

He even mentioned that God asked him whether he wants his church to be planted in Europe... 2 things struck my mind: 1) How did God talk to you about this??? 2) You are so not glorifying Him and why would He want you to plant more churches that doesn't glorify Him at all, might as well just breed more Dawkins, enlightened people or something else than so called 'Christians' that you are rearing...

I just can't help but wonder how many TRUE Christians are there right now... The fact that I have to use the word 'true' shows you how pathetic the situation is...

The irony here is that 'Christians' are intimidated by the bible and don't even want to touch it be it idleness or whatsoever, and when some places don't use the bible at all, they love it... So much for the Reformation guys... You guys just made Reformation look so stupid right now... And I'm ranting all this on a Reformation Sunday!!!

Shall quote some stuff from Martin Luther:

Some pastors and preachers are lazy and no good. They do not pray; they do not read; they do not search the Scripture ... The call is: watch, study attend to reading. In truth you cannot read too much in Scripture; and what you read you cannot read too carefully, and what you read carefully you cannot understand too well, and what you understand well you cannot teach too well, and what you teach well you cannot live too well ... The devil ... the world ... and our flesh are raging and raving against us. Therefore, dear sirs and brothers, pastors and preachers, pray, read, study, be diligent ... This evil. shameful time is not the season for being lazy, for sleeping and snoring.

Prayer is the echo of the freedom and sufficiency of God in the heart of powerless man. It is the way he conceived of his theology and the way he pursued his studies. And it is the way he died.

At 3:00 a.m. on February 18, 1546, Luther died. His last recorded words were, "Wir sein Bettler. Hoc est verum." "We are beggars. This is true" (see note 72). God is free—utterly free—in his grace. And we are beggars—pray-ers. That is how we live, and that is how we study, so that God gets the glory and we get the grace.

LORD, please have mercy on these lost souls...

Depression and Love...

2010-10-24T21:54:00.003+08:00

I'm utterly depressed now... Not sure if I'm turning into a hyper-Calvinist or not but who cares... Jesus is LORD and I'm trying to be biblical... The following will be a few reasons of why I'm depressed at this moment...

1. There's a place that I should be but I can't go... I need to be edified and must edify my brothers and sisters but I can't... More importantly, my dear brother will be marrying my sister(FYI, this is not an incest relationship, it's just brother and sister in Christ) And guess what, I can't be there, instead I have to attend my relative's open house... It just doesn't feel right... If I were to go out on Sundays, there's only 1 place that I will definitely go to...

2. My perspective on life has changed... In the dinner that I just attended, I feel so weird and alienated... Because it just kills me to know that a high possibility that most of the crowd there are going to hell(don't mean to judge though, but yeah)... And I just don't know how to communicate with them anymore... I think I've lost that worldly conversation touch(hope not)...

3. The necessity for the dinner just now was to let us see the new house that my cousin bought... It costs RM 2.2 million!!! The house is big but I just feel that it's too cramped because they make use of most of the spaces... But that's not the point, the point is how I wish that all that money can be channeled to CERC!!! argh... Just so sad... In addition, it doesn't matter how wealthy you are and how much 'make-up' you use to beautify your life... In the end, you can never deny the fact that you have rebelled against God and He has revealed himself through Jesus and you have rejected all these for a wasted life... I'd rather live on tightrope with a Godly wife and a few cute, adorable and Godly children and still surrender myself to Jesus than to waste my life in beautifying something that will be exposed on Judgment Day...

On a side note, what do you think the word L-O-V-E means??? Is it merely a display of affection towards someone or something i.e. i love you, i love that shirt... Or is there something bigger??? Think that I'm just being Christian??? Well, even the phrase 'Jesus loves you' means nothing at this era, take that!!! So then, what is love??? These four letters has been abused in a super twisted way that it just doesn't much anymore... Anyone can say to you that he/she loves you, but you will never know their sincerity, motives and their interpretation of love...

For me, I really cannot understand that word now... The biblical love is where God sends His own Son, the Man Jesus Christ to be crucified for people that so not deserve it to the point where all they have is judgment on them... This is where the complicated stuffs come in, why did He send His own Son to die for us??? Because of His love is the answer, but then I cannot comprehend it... Simply because its just too big even for a man with a minimal level of sinfulness to understand it more over for an evil man like me... It's because we're so sinful that we often blind ourselves of seeing the truth and then we make ourselves follies... This love or whatever you want to call it is just too big, so awesome and such an amazing grace that I can't use my very own words to describe it even though I can feel it... I shall categorize this under IWoG(Infinite Wisdom of God)...

This whole love question struck me just now when I was lining up for a bowl of ais kacang in the dinner... The queue was pretty long and the man was drilling and making ais kacang non-stop... But guess what, I never hear a word of appreciation for that poor man... So what you would say, we paid him to work, we're just getting what we deserve... But do you really think you deserve to be served instead of serving someone???

LORD, please have mercy on these people that they may come to know You someday... And thank you for your LOVE of saving foolish and sinful people who just can't comprehend this great thing that you gave us...

Memorial, Frustration, Salvation...

2010-10-17T21:45:00.002+08:00

I'm starting to wonder if my parents are really humans afterall... I went for my friend's memorial yesterday night... And the venue was my high school... As Joe said, we've never been there for quite some time and this time that we're here it's for a sad reason... How shocking... I couldn't even recall the way to get to my school... Well, reminiscing memories aside...

The memorial was good... A lot of people attended including a few teachers... Personally, I kinda liked Mrs Meagan Lim's speech... She said that during Form 3, she gave Bryan lots of work to do as he was the class monitor... And now Bryan has given her the toughest homework she has which is to give an eulogy speech... Initially, she refused to do it because she knows that she will cry and won't be able to finish it, but in the end, she gave the speech because she wanted to complete the task that Bryan gave... It was so touching!!!

And it's just amazing to see how a simple action can bring so many people to remember a great man... Put this into Jesus' death and resurrection you'll start wondering why people deny it... How can someone accept historical facts from ancient Chinese history to Liverpool FC being sold and reject the one and only historical document that will bring unbearable consequences- the Bible!!!

Well, this morning when I woke up, my parents asked me how was yesterday... I told them about it then they started asking me about his results and his performances which I don't really know, then my dad started yelling... Just because I seem to be normal doesn't mean I don't need to be consoled, and if you don't want to console me then fine but not yelling at me!!! More over, yelling at me just because I didn't find out about his results??? WTH is wrong with you?! A man died and you're asking about his results?! Mind you, I had problems talking to his parents yesterday night and how am I supposed to ask about other stuffs?! It's just so absurd!!!

While I living on with my day, I think I finally understood why religions that promote salvation based on works are so sellable!!! Even for me, I really wanted it to happen so that I can bring my friend back to life again... But then, come to think of it, do you really think you can do ALL the works and save a life?!

In Luke 10, a lawyer asked Jesus what can he DO to INHERIT eternal life... The question itself is already contradicting... If you're gonna inherit something, you definitely don't and can't do anything!!! But Jesus didn't shoot him down, Jesus asked him about the law since he was a lawyer... The lawyer stated the 1st commandment and loving neighbour... Jesus asked him to GO, AND DO LIKEWISE... Obviously, Jesus knows the inconsistency in the lawyer's question, but he gave this reply, to ask him do it... So, is Jesus saying that you can do something to inherit eternal life??? NO!!! It was actually a challenge to the lawyer because Jesus knows that he can't do it... Man, the 1st commandment- Deut 6:5 Love the Lord your God with ALL your Might and ALL your Soul and ALL your Heart... Notice the word ALL??? If you think that Christianity is just another moralistic religion, I challenge you to GO and DO all the ten commandments!!!

So if you were to save yourself based on works, I'd reckon you to just kill yourself and not even try it because within 1 minute, you'll be exhausted and frustrated at the same time!!!

Again, thank God for the Cross and knowing how incapable we are of saving ourselves...

God bless all of you...

Are we so dull...

2010-10-15T23:33:00.002+08:00

Are we so dull??? How often have missed the plot of something which is bigger than what it seems to be??? How often that we do things for the sake of doing and had no means of doing it(which questions the reason for doing it)??? See, when you don't even know why you're doing what you're doing then there's no point of doing it, because you have just lost the purpose of executing your actions to do it...

In John 6, the Jews were looking for Jesus because they wanted more bread which in the previous verses He provided them... Jesus was trying to show them something but all they saw was the miracle and by them seeking Jesus just for the bread totally makes it clearer of how foolish they were... And then it goes on with Jesus telling them He is the bread of life since they wanted the bread so badly... But in the end after Jesus explaining everything, all that they can understand was the last sentence or maybe the last part of 1 whole big chunk of text... It's just like watching a movie with the only the starting and ending...(though some movies are pretty predictable, but hope you get my point) If you watch a movie like that, might as well you just watch the trailer because most probably the trailer already has all the movie has to show...

So my point is, how often do you question your actions??? But before that, let me throw you a challenge, what's your purpose of having life on earth??? This is the BIGGEST question you should answer!!! Seek the truth and it shall set you free(from sin)...

May the LORD help you to come to a point of realization...

Reasons for me to study...

2010-10-10T14:55:00.003+08:00

I found the reasons for me to study already!!!

1. So that my parents cannot find fault in me

2. So that I can go to church peacefully

3. So that I can continue to do campus ministry next year and hopefully the following year as well

4. reasons 1,2,3 = ALL FOR THE GLORY OF GOD!!!

Please remind me of these reasons if you see me slacking, thank you!!!

God bless...

Contentment and Total Depravity...

2010-10-08T21:43:00.003+08:00

What does it take to satisfy someone or maybe yourself??? Is it being the top student??? Is it being the top dog in your job??? Is it having a whole bunch of titles added before your name??? Is it having a wife with a few kids and a happy family??? Is it having all the money in the world and relax in your bungalow??? Is it knowing that you have eternal life in heaven??? Or is it knowing that Jesus died for your sins???

The truth is neither of these can satisfy one's self... Well, you might deny it, but as a fellow sinner, I can tell you there shall never be a limit in what we want!!! Maybe it's due to our imagination that triggered all these cravings... Still want to deny??? Take Adam for example, pre-Fall, he was the perfect man, he even lived under God's rule and had everything, the whole world in fact... But, as you know, he ate the fruit... He was trying to seek knowledge outside of God because the snake told him that he will have the knowledge of good and evil if he eats it...

Post-Fall, I feel that we don't even deserve anything!!! We are so sinful that we can't even be a moralistic person, how do you think you will even fare in God's standard??? You don't think that we're all immoral??? Try this, how often have you said thank you??? I bet you say it almost after every few sentences, but what I'm trying to ask you is in so numerous times of saying thank you, how many of it were just to be polite and how many of it really stem from a thankful heart??? Get what I mean now??? Still not satisfied of my claims???

Try this one, whenever you manage to help someone, after helping him/her, they'll thank you(not sure if they really meant it or not though), few days later you bump into that person again, but he/she JUST says hi or might not even bother to look at you... What comes to your mind??? Wished that you never helped them??? This is all because we do things with an expectancy whether it may be big or small... My point is, in whatever we do, we already have a motive for doing it - which is to want something back... Now, tell me on what account can you still say you're a good person now...

We're all so sinful that we can't even live to our own standards, how can you say that you're not a sinner before God?! Because of our extremely sinful nature, we don't even deserve to breath the next breathe... Just imagine you're already drowning in the deep blue sea with sharks, struggling to gasp for air, but you're still thinking of which shirt you'll be wearing tomorrow... Absurd??? But this is the true reality of our sinful nature...

Henceforth, the five points of Calvinism- TULIP, fits in nicely...

God bless...

Bryan...

2010-09-29T21:16:00.004+08:00

I really don't know what to say right now... Just feel so shocked and numb... Bryan Chiel Yee Hao, my high school friend whom I know since Form 1 left me... And it was a tragic hit-and-run accident...

LORD, why do you have to do this??? But again, who am I to question You, for You made him and me... I just hope that he served and glorified You with his 20 years of life...

Even though I'm not that close to him, but I can still remember his face vividly... Even though we didn't talk much after Form 1, but I still see him as a good friend because he was a good and smart man... Even though, I've never seen him since we left high school, I still remember him for who he was... Even though he is no longer here now, he dwells inside me now...

He was like a brother to me, his kindness, his size, his sportsmanship, his basketball talents, his intelligence, his charming smile, his bald hair, his manly voice, everything seems to be showing up in my head now...

I really want a time machine to go back to Form 1 and share the gospel with him in order to destroy the guilt that I have now!!! Why didn't I know the gospel earlier?! Though I'm not sure if he needed to hear it but that's all I can do and could've done...

Bryan, you have truly been a great friend who made a mark in our lives...

http://pressrepublican.com/0100_news/x74676263/Police-investigating-fatal-accident

I shall never forget today-the day when a good man whom I know of has left me...

LORD all I can hope for now is that you will have mercy on this kind soul even if he didn't know you...

Goodbye dear friend...

Christian and politics???

2010-09-20T00:29:00.002+08:00

If you're a Christian and you have time to kill, just click the link below:

http://thestar.com.my/lifestyle/story.asp?file=/2010/9/19/lifefocus/6880606&sec=lifefocus

Can Christian and politics work together or are they mutually exclusive or they depend on one another???

Tell me what do you think about it after that...hahaha!!!

Awesome holiday!!!

2010-09-15T23:02:00.003+08:00

It's been a good holiday until now!!! So happy throughout these few days(since Friday), because I've learnt a lot about God!!! Went to Word Works on Isaiah on Friday and Saturday... I feel so joyful reading Isaiah now... Really need to admit that I was so lost when I first read Isaiah before the conference but it all makes more sense now...

Then, enjoyed Evangelistic Sunday though I really have no idea how to talk to RC... Thank God for pointing out my problem!!!

Went for Don Carson's conference at Tropicana on Monday and Tuesday... Understood the parable of Good Samaritan PROPERLY!!! I emphasized on the word 'properly' because there was this pastor that came to CF on 1 Friday and he misused that same text and it was heretical just by listening and reading the text even though I have to admit that I got the text wrong after reading it myself... The worst thing was, he ended by 'don't preach the gospel...' This shows how sad Malaysia is now, so much more work to do!!!

After understanding it properly, I had a great rebuke from the sermon... How often do we justify ourselves??? Thank God for the cross, people!!!

Lastly, just wanna quote John Newton which was mentioned by Carson: "I am not what I ought to be, I am not what I want to be, I am not what I hope to be in another world; but still I am not what I once used to be, and by the grace of God I am what I am..."

LORD, please open up more eyes and ears to come to you!!!

Amazing Grace!!!

2010-08-23T00:38:00.003+08:00

Finally, I get to meet my brothers and sisters!!! I feel so happy and sad at the same time... Sad because I can only meet them once a month... The sermon was on John 9... It's about a blind man being healed by Jesus and how he actually saw even though he was blind, but it was the Pharisees who were actually blinded even though they have visual abilities... This is how graceful and powerful God is in His salvation plan!!! FYI, I helped a blind man to cross the road while waiting for my ride to church, talk about God's timing... hahaha!!!

I just can't figure how can one live a life without Him... Even simple logic tells you that being attached too much on worldly possessions brings no good, otherwise people won't be killing each other or even themselves just because of their very own failure to achieve what they wanted... You, a folly, stop wasting your life on meaningless things!!! Your life in God's eye is much more than just a stupid Ph.D or thousands of shops that you have behind your name... He wants you to be a ruler of the world under HIM!!! A ruler!!! Not just a mere intellectual being or a business man, but a ruler!!!

And guess what... His salvation is a total free gift from Him... You don't and can't do anything to acquire it... How good is that???

So, do you see the truth??? Or are you just following blindly because your parents told you to do so, or just because it makes sense to you??? And if you see the truth, what kind of image of Jesus are you seeing??? Is it really the Jesus' version of Jesus or your own interpretation of Him???

If you're seeing Jesus based on your own interpretations, then you are no different from those religious people out there, for this is the very reason why religions were made in the 1st place, isn't it so???

It is glad to know that the whole church knows what I'm going through right now... And how impactful a minor action can make to the whole congregation, because by me attending the gathering, it is already very edifying and encouraging for them... aaaaaaaaahhhh... Thank God for using me to glorify Him in such a way, but I seriously don't want to go through this anymore... LORD, please help me get this done and over with!!!

LORD, please bless us all...

HELP...

2010-08-08T20:33:00.002+08:00

Didn't make it to church AGAIN today!!! LORD, I really need your help to open up their eyes, not that I can go to church peacefully, but so that they will be saved!!! Please save my mom!!!

There's one thing that I really don't understand... My dad keep insulting and throwing questions at me about this matter, but I can keep quiet and not defend it... hmm...

No matter what happens... God will be glorified!!! Hallelujah!!!

Love...

2010-08-06T00:21:00.003+08:00

I am very troubled recently... Thanks to my ungodly parents... Wonder what will happen this Sunday... Shall do my best and stand up for the gospel... LORD, please help me!!!

O God,

How great is your love,

That you sent your Son to be crucified...

What did we do to deserve such grace???

You could have just zapped us and send all of us away,

How I wish that could happen,

Though I won't want to dwell in hell,

But sometimes I just really don't know what to do anymore,

I've done my part, and it's all up to you now, LORD,

To have mercy upon them...

I pray that you will help me to open up more eyes and ears to see and hear you,

So that they will come to know how loving you are and not just merely by our own humanly definition of love...

I want to live under You, for there's no greater joy than this... Lord, please help me with this...

Perseverance...

2010-07-11T00:52:00.003+08:00

I'm getting very sick of this stupid place already!!! Mainly because of my freaking parents!!! aaaaaahhh... He keeps thinking that whatever he knows is correct therefore he rejects Christianity because what he knows is not the whole picture(which he thinks it is)... aaaahhh... I just don't know how long can I hold this within me...

My sinful heart has always been saying 'shut up and stop talking, just die and go to hell, then you'll know what's right and wrong'... So I really thank God for the cross otherwise I'll be heading to the same place as he is... ahhhhh...

Here are the naive and vulnerable points that he brought out:

-Christianity was formed because Jesus and His disciples did stuff on their own so whatever happened, happened within themselves

-Then the scriptures were written by the 12 apostles

-Then he just asked Him 2 rise again....

-All other religions are documented as well

-History has never recorded buddhism fighting against each other but Christians fought before...

-The usual arguement of if Jesus is God why didnt he come down from the cross...

I processed all the answers in my brain as soon as he finished his 'smart' questions, but I just kept quiet, maybe it was because of my sinful nature of not wanting to share to him, or maybe I just know that he wasn't expecting answers instead he was trying to disprove the truth...

Lord please guide me!!! Thank you...

It was my day...

2010-06-04T00:26:00.002+08:00

It was my birthday about 30 mins ago... And this will be my 1st ever post after such a long hiatus of laziness and 'busy' schedules... This is really a good year such that I've grown a lot in the gospel and by a lot it means A L-O-T!!! haha...

Never really celebrated my birthday and I didn't really bother much but I just keep getting surprised when ever people wish me with those two words and seeing those wall posts on FB just tells you that internet is just such a powerful tool... hahaha!!! Thank you to everyone for everything that you have whether you bought me a present or just greeting me with just those 2 words, it was still sufficient to make me happy...

Most importantly, thank God for bringing me up for 19 years and giving me the realization of the importance of Your existence... the major celebration I guess was that I got to see how sinful we are during the bible study just now on my birthday night!!! haha...

Thank you Lord!!!

Question for thought: is getting A really such a big issue?! why can't my parents just see the bloody bigger picture?! aaaaaaaahhh...

Lord please help me with this!!! thank you...

Travelling...

2010-01-28T00:52:00.002+08:00

Humans are born with the desire to roam the Earth... We crawl, then walk, then run, all in an effort to move further away from where we came from, from home...

I know first hand the thrill of changing what surroundings can do for one's heart and now I also know that sometimes staying home and let others go can be its own fantastic dream... Because when you let go of something, you make room for something else entirely, something you never expected, something that makes life seem like its own unexpected adventure- a trip where new treasures are found around every old corner, where the world and all its complexities come right to your doorstep...

Because in the end, the power is not just with those who go away, but also in what they leave behind...

God bless you peeps...

Thankful & Joyful...

2010-01-22T00:05:00.003+08:00

Went for COP during Wednesday... It was in a spastic centre that I passed by a thousand of times but never really know that place till that day... Those children there are actually very willing to learn despite their circumstances, and so I reflected on myself after that, and found out that there's just so much to be grateful for in this life!!! So you bastards please stop complaining, and try to be grateful with what you have!!! Those children are so eager to learn stuffs regardless of their age, and mind you a 14 year-old girl was just learning basic English as in standard 1 or 2!!! SO PLEASE, BE THANKFUL with what you have now, and stop whining!!!

Went to Sunway Lagoon on Thursday with Manlo, Mark, Huey Jen, Samantha, Swee Vien, Sarah and Vishal!!! It has been about 3 years since I last came here... I can still recall the times we had here with my Form 5 classmates(the best class!!!)... And this time it was also very fun!!! HAHA!!!

Played all of the games(if i'm not mistaken)... SOOOOOOOOOO FUN!!! Damn tiring but joyful... After that, had dinner at Ayam Penyet recommended by Sarah... Had fun talking crap again!!! After that, went to watch Legion with Manlo, Mark and Sulo(she came later just for the movie)... The movie was kinda nice based on a moral prospective and theological way... The ending wasn't that good but still acceptable... In the end, it is just about having faith in Him...

Hallelujah!!!

Awesome Weekend!!!

2010-01-18T12:26:00.002+08:00

This is an update about my awesome weekend!!! haha... Had another superbly awesomely fantastically amazing weekend!!! So tiring, but it was fun & happy!!! And I managed to learn a lot of things too!!!

Was working with AMSA on Saturday as told in the previous post...

Worked in Open Day on Sunday!!! I was in charged of taking blood pressures... As I'm only a sem 1 student so I dare not use the conventional sphygmomanometer instead I used the automatic one, but I'm sure I have already mastered the manual way(hopefully)... The joy of doing something for someone and hearing them say a word of gratefulness to you is just indescribable!!! Let's hope I won't deviate from this burning desire and passion of mine in pursuing my ambition!!!

After that, tagged along Lilian's car to go to church... Her aunt joined us too... She's one funny person!!! She might be an elderly person but her mental age is definitely not much older than me!!! haha!!! It was so jolly...

The Almighty is in control of everything... God bless those in Haiti... Amen!!!

AMSA Campaign Day...

2010-01-16T23:49:00.002+08:00

16/1/10 is the day of the AMSA thingy... So happy that it was such a great success!!! Though I wasn't in the committee but I'm always satisfied with being able to help out in things...haha!!! More over, this was a successful one!!! Although our batch were only in charge on registrations, I managed to learn quite a lot of things...

I found out that mati pucuk=ED!!! haha... I learnt that communication plays a seriously MAJOR ROLE in a doctor's career!!! Besides, the way you convey your message is the 2nd most important thing!!! As Dr. Inti from the Jinjang Clinic said, 'Medicine is an art. It's not about what you know, but how you deliver it to your patients.'... I also found out that my BM and Chinese are getting rusty!!! Though I often use Chinese when I'm with my secondary school friends, I have no idea why it just sounds so odd when I'm with my uni mates... But I definitely don't intend to brush them up...haha!!! Let it deteriorate, as long as I can still remember my basic stuffs...

After all, it was a rather tiring but awesome morning!!! Talked to a few patients to help them register and I learnt some new things from them such as PCOS- Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome...

This is the best event that I ever participated in!!! haha... There were no blunders at all...

Alright... Gonna help out in open day tomorrow, which I'm sure is gonna be even more tiring than this... And I think I might be able to take BPs... Let's hope I don't screw my very 1st CSU session and definitely not in front of public!!!

God bless me to perform well and not do stupid things... Amen!!!

AMSA...

2010-01-15T12:28:00.002+08:00

Went for some AMSA stuff yesterday in Jinjang... It's actually a campaign in collaboration with a clinic in Jinjang to provide free health screening on Saturday... Therefore, we had to distribute the flyers to the villagers yesterday...

This is definitely a better experience compared to the 1 that I participated in during Form 5 for Chong Hwa...swt... I can still recall that while we were distributing the flyers along Taman Kaya, most of the people were very reluctant and they just won't listen... We were trying to promote a talk that time and guess what... We, the volunteers ourselves were the only audience the speaker had... How saddening is that...

Back to the present, I walked a lot!!! Knocked on almost every house that I passed by and was so happy to see that they actually listen and when I reassured them to come, they actually nodded!!! Though, won't be confident that they'll attend... But it was definitely better than my previous experience!!! Had great fun man!!! Tomorrow's gonna be the day... Hope that I'll be able to learn more stuffs...

God bless this event to be successful... Thank you...

Hitch...

2010-01-13T23:34:00.006+08:00

It is rare to actually have the chance to save someone's life... For most of us, our days are filled with small serious gestures like a place to lay your head or a beer for our thirsty friend... Then there are times when our life calls for bigger gifts whether you give a fresh start to yourself or a second chance to someone else... But in the end of the day, perhaps it is our small gestures that will add up to something big to a life saved or at least to a life bettered... Sometimes, the small things are what matters the most, as the grandest gesture can be the smallest one of all...

Was watching Hitch just now... Though I've watched it for couple of times but I'm still not bored of it because of Will Smith...haha!!! He rocks!!!

Here are 3 quotes that can make your brain work for a few seconds:

You never where you're going until you know where you have been...

Life is not the amount of breaths you take, but the MOMENTS that take your breath away...

That's what people do: they leap and pray to God that they can fly, because otherwise they'll drop and start wondering why the hell did they jump...

God bless all of you...

Expressions...

2010-01-13T00:49:00.003+08:00

As children, we were taught to express ourselves, we were told to use our words to be specific and not to assume that others know how we feel because the truth is, it takes us saying aloud to know what we need, to know what we feel ourselves...

As adults, there are those times when words fail us... In times like this, we put our words away and show how we feel because actions speak louder than words and that saying a lot... As a matter a fact, your saying means nothing if your actions betrays you...

P/S: just some random scrapping...

God bless all of you!!!

2010...

2010-01-06T13:56:00.002+08:00

It has almost been a week in 2010... Sorry for the super late post due to my laziness... Gosh been using those 4 alphabets very often since the start of the year!!! Crap man, gotta stop using it when class starts... Mind you, the 4 letters are L-A-Z-Y instead of what you have in your mind... lol!!!

Celebrated New Year's Eve on FB... lol!!! And then went out with Kha Tiam and Tze Hing some day after that... Celebrated Elden's birthday yesterday and went for Left 4 Dead 2 with him and Park... Zombie rampage!!! Yeah man!!! What a gory feast we had... So fun!!!

Awaiting for more outings to come... My dear phone/msn/FB chat please ring or pop something out otherwise i'm just gonna rot like a fag(as usual) at home AGAIN!!!

New Year Resolutions:

1. Work harder compared to last year(possible??? i think i kinda reached my limit last year already, oh well, giving it a shot wouldn't hurt...)

2. Make sure that I'll get into Sem 4 when I type my 1st blog post in the year 2011!!!

Guess that's all... God bless all of ya out there...!!!

Bits of memories throughout the year...

2009-12-31T11:54:00.004+08:00

ARGHHHHHHHHHHH!!! Finally I have the freaking time and mood to freaking update my blog... haha!!! Just finished my Sem 1 exam yesterday and had an awesome post-exam night... After exams, I went to the library to FB!!! haha... Then, we(Park, Chee Seng, Elden, Jiang, Wee San and Chee Kuan) went for steamboat buffet at sunway... It was actually Elden's birthday celebration in advance... After that, we went to Pyramid to meet up with Lili, Bryon, Evan and Ming Han because they were holding our A-V-A-T-A-R movie tickets!!! haha... Never watched any movie since the bloody flop and cheating movie Ninja... Before heading to the theater(as the movie is at 11.55pm!!!), we went to CC for Left 4 Dead 2!!! Yeah man... grr grr grr chhhhhhhhiiiiiiiiiiiingggggggg listen to the chainsaw's grindings... Got home at 3.15am... Awesome!!!

Alright, today is the very last day of the decade... Still can remember that during 1999, everyone was panicking due to the Y2K virus, but now we're already 10 years away and doing good(not that good due to recessions though)...

So how has this year been for me?! It's just A-M-A-Z-I-N-G!!! Started my year with driving exam and ended it with my Sem 1 summative... How nice is that...haha!!! Stepped into college life and university life this year... Really love my college mates thought I've only known them for 6 months but there seems to be a bond that cannot be broken already...

Though I know that the M2 batches in IMU are gonna have a lot of rough rides, but I won't regret doing my 6 months A-Levels to enter it!!! Met lots of great people and fun friends here!!! God bless all of you!!! Kudos to Park, Jerome and Elden for guiding me towards the right path... Sincerely, THANK YOU VERY MUCH!!!

Oh well, next year's gonna be a hell of a year for my batch because of EOS 2 and 3... Mind you EOS 3 ends on 31st December, my sem 3 seniors are still having their exams right now at this very moment!!! AHHHHHHHHHHH... But seeing the way we celebrate our ending of sufferings, I shall have my mind set on that everything that I've gone through is well worth its price...

Thank God, for giving me an amazing year... Let's see what's gonna happen in 2010... And thank you to my homies who were always there for me, love you guys forever!!! 2010 must be more amazing than 2009!!! God bless us all... Amen!!!

Slap me!!!

2009-12-13T22:57:00.004+08:00

Aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh!!! Slap me please!!! It was a rather unproductive day!!! Didn't study a lot, instead relaxed for long hours...

Maybe it's due to the freaking hot weather, or maybe I just don't feel like studying for the day...AHHHHHHH!!! Have to pick myself up again tomorrow otherwise, I'm gonna fail summative 1... Off to watch TV now... lol!!!

God bless me to get back in my study mode again please... Thanks... Amen!!!

Library Encounter...

2009-11-28T20:30:00.002+08:00

Today I went to the library to study... "No shorts in library" was the phrase I heard from a rude stranger... Actually it was the stupid bitch sitting outside the library... I can't say that she's librarian because she made some noise in the library and I had to remind her... How professional is that???

She's also a freaking rude bitch... Everytime I pass by in front of her, she will say no shorts in library, without addressing anyone... And what does that sentence mean??? She wants us to strip in order to enter the library?! And so I challenged her...haha!!! The 'Attack of Marcus' according to Je Vin...

Went to the toilet with Je Vin and as soon as we went into the library, I TRIED to ignore her as how I did just before that, but she keep saying "Excuse me!!!" and after 2 failed attempts to catch my attention she freaking yelled at me "Excuse me!!!", how smart can that be? 'Excuse me' is supposed to be a phrase showing how sincere and polite you are but she shouted it out... Screw you bitch!!!

Then I replied 'WHAT?!' and guess what she said... "No shorts in library!!!" WTF... I said she can either get me a car(to drive me home) or shut up... Then she instantly said follow me to see my boss... So smart... Just throwing the responsibility and problems to her boss instead of trying to solve it with her own hands(mind you she's 50+ old)... Just an add-on, during my 1st encounter with this monster, she said "No shorts in library because my boss is here..." So what does this mean again??? When you're boss is absent we can wear it? I'm just here to study, I don't care who the hell and wtf your boss wants from you!!! By the way, we're the ones who paid you to take care of the books, indirectly we're your true employer!!! BITCH!!!

After speaking to the polite and nice boss, I was allowed to study there but Je Vin doesn't want to so we went to the discussion room...

I'm glad to have learnt something from here... NO!!! Not "No shorts in library"... It's why some old people are working UNDER some young men who are almost half their age!!! The reason is simple- rude and irresponsible(as in not trying to solve the problem with her own BRAIN)!!!

Lastly, screw this bitch and this idiotic rule!!! Students enter the library to study, who cares what attire their on as long as it's not raunchy!!!

God bless these idiocracy to vanquish please, otherwise humanity shall be gone way earlier than 2012!!!

Sem 2 EOS...

2009-11-09T21:38:00.002+08:00

Just had a slight vision of my Sem 2 life... Well, it wasn't actually a vision but rather reflection... Tomorrow's gonna be D-day for my Sem 2 seniors(which will be my turn next February)... It's their EOS(End of Semester) exam!!!

As usual, sat in the library with them and studied together... But this time, everyone was quiet... The whole library had a long pin-drop silence moment which is seriously rare... The probability is as low as striking a jackpot!!! haha... The whole row was pilled with notes... And all of them were rather panicking... None of them managed to finish all the notes... So scarily horrifying!!! I am so gonna suffer from mental breakdown if I were in this situation(I'm just a few months away)...

Good luck and all the best everyone!!! May God bless all of you, for He is my Lord and I shall serve Him...

Time machine...

2009-10-30T22:43:00.003+08:00

Ever wished for a time machine whenever it's the occasion to ask something from God??? I'm sure most of us would have done that, well at least when we were small... Why would we want this device??? To undo the things that we despise or our wrongdoings and to have a peek at our future... But when it really happens, will you really have the courage to change even an itsy bitsy tiny thing??? Because the present is the accumulation of your past... Will you really want to change it???

The reason why I'm scrapping this is because I just watched The Time Traveler's Wife today... The storyline has no plot, but the acting is commendable... Never liked Eric Bana because of his stale and stagnant acting in his previous movies especially The Hulk, but in here, he is really doing what he was paid for... That's the only plus point for the movie...

Well, the story is that he has a genetic abnormality that causes him to time warp into the past or future where a major event is about to happen... From there, I can only see one advantage of him warping around- being able to see the lottery number of the future and buy it in the present and committing crimes when he is going to be warped back...

So, be careful with what you wish for... God bless...

Lesson Learned...

2009-10-17T12:29:00.003+08:00

Just learned a lesson early in the morning as in midnight!!! Such a bad timing...

The lesson is doing good deeds doesn't mean you'll get appreciated and it's still okay for this(because I've encountered this way too many times) instead, getting accused of something else related to it is just so hideous that it is even worse than being skinned!!! Damn bitch!!!

I've treated her as a good friend for such a long time and was just trying to patch things up... And she doesn't mind losing an unfaithful friend like me out of a sudden... WTF?! Go to hell la...

P/S: Thank you, LORD for teaching me a lesson, the hard way...

Lost contact...

2009-10-12T17:53:00.002+08:00

Lost contact with e-world for the past 3 days, 'kudos' to bloody streamyx...!!! Anyhow, I still didn't manage to study much even though the main temptation was 'destroyed' and I have no clue of how I spent my time...

The only thing that I'm clear is that I had not ate any home-cooked food during those internet-less days... Celebrated Joe's birthday with PJ Crews at shabu-shabu 1U, had pre-wedding buffet dinner on Saturday, Wedding dinner on Sunday... And celebrated Joe's birthday again at IMU this afternoon...

I feel like I'm getting lost!!! It seems like I studied lots of things and I have no idea in the end... Scary!!! Feeling panic now(though long way to go before exam)!!!

God bless my friends who are about to sit for exams!!!

3 in 1 Departure Day...

2009-10-03T22:40:00.003+08:00

Today, 3 of my friends left Malaysia... Sob... Hare Jsr, Kelly and Kuan Hui headed to India early in the morning... Unfortunately, didn't get to meet up with Kelly... Barely slept last night... Slept at 2am and woke at 4.30am, but arrived at KLIA at 6.30am thanks to Sam...haha!!! Kwan Siong nearly missed the chance to see Hare Jsr if it ain't for Sam though...haha!!!

After that, we(Joe, Sam, Bear, Ken Ling and I) went to Taylors... KL had a class trip to attend so he dropped us there... We had our breakfast at Uncle Seng which was worth every cent there...haha!!! Then we went to Sunway Pyramid... Guess how did we went there... On feet!!! From Taylors to Pyramid!!! Thanks to Joe's brilliant idea...hehe... Quite fun though... Then we had to take a bus to Asia Jaya to get home...

This will be our life when we go out for the next few months... No more blackies... Transportation problems!!! There will always be the 5(maximum) of us during yum cha or whatsoever... Sigh...

Watched arguably the best episode of Grey's Anatomy... Season 5 Episode 22- What A Difference A Day Makes... And I think it just made me really emo after going through this whole day...

Anyhow, GOOD LUCK AND ALL THE BEST TO HARE JSR, KELLY AND KUAN HUI... May God be with you...

So long...Goodbye...

2009-10-02T20:19:00.003+08:00

These few weeks have been quite saddening... Not because lectures have started(though it's part of it), but a lot of my friends have went and are going abroad to further their studies... Most of them I never even had the chance to meet up with them since we left CH, and they just left like 'pufff' and the next thing I'm gonna see is their FB pics or statuses showing where they are currently at...

Seems like the human touch is slowly turning into e-touch... And personally I think that it's quite aching for being unable to see their last moments in this hellish place...haha!!! Even if they graduate from their respective places, they might not even work here... Which means that the last time that I saw them will be during high school... sob...

Consequently, I also thought of what will really happen when all of us are graduates and working in our respective professions... Definitely, things will never ever be the same again... No one will do crazy stuffs anymore, I guess...

Well... The 2nd Indian gay is leaving for India tomorrow!!! Hare Jsr will be going to Oxford Dental College in Bangalore... So is Kelly and Kuan Hui, but they're going to a university in Salem which has a twinning in Penang... Good luck and all the best to you 3!!! May God bless you all the way... JUST DO IT!!!

Goodbye Hare Jsr, Kelly, Kuan Hui!!! We shall meet again soon!!! Love you guys...

Bye Gay...

2009-09-15T19:23:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was the day... The day when no matter how hard we try to MSN, FaceBook, call, sms or whatever, we still won't be able to see his shadow... Well, for the next 16 months that is...

Hare C left for Australia!!! Leaving us behind!!! lol... Sob... No more 'virus'... No more hiding ourselves when we do something humiliating because there's no one to amplify it!!! aaaaa... Good thing is, he's pursuing his dream... By the time he comes back, he'll be the 1st one to work among us... COOOOOOOOOOOL!!! Next time yum cha, we know who to settle the bill...haha...

The departure of the gayest member in PJ Crews has certainly made a huge impact on the crew members because he was the one who turned us gay, and now, he left us to a country with tonnes of hot chicks!!! Damn you...lol... And now there will be 1 less driver to fetch me home, and 1 less member in the yum cha gang... Damn...

No one will shout 'wah XXX, gap lui a?!' when we are really peeping!!! No one to shout at other reckless driver 'sei ma lai chi, know how to drive or not?!'... No one to say 'deng, sei wai yeh!!!' when a not beautiful girl passes by...

Ji put come back fast a!!! We miss you!!! We need you!!! We love you!!! haha...

Even though he comes back, I doubt that things will be the same... Because he'll be working!!! Hopefully, he gets a break during Saturday nights...

May God bless him a bright future and have a safe journey whenever he flies...

Contented week...

2009-09-13T11:22:00.002+08:00

This week is the official start of my uni life because the lectures had just officially started on Monday... Still standing I guess... Went for our last orientation activity yesterday- Charity Home Visit... And it was with group 11!!! It was really fun!!! Obviously better than being with the group that we despise...haha!!! Played with the children at the orphanage-Rumah KIDS... Though I didn't do much, because our time was limited and we had to handle them cautiously, but still it was fun!!!

Went yum cha with Hare Bros, Joe, Sam, Bear and KL... Apologies for not being able to attend SS's birthday + farewell dinner for Hare C and attended Ivan's instead...hehe!!! lol... After yum cha, we went to INC!!! Played CS for 2 hours!!! woooooooooohooo!!! So fun!!!

Lastly, goodbye and the best of luck to Charanyah(who will be leaving within hours) and Hare C!!! May god bless you!!!

End of orientation...

2009-09-05T00:02:00.002+08:00

Orientation is over!!! In other words, have to start studying!!! Haizzz... Though everyday was so restless especially this week(never reached home before 11.30pm) but undoubtedly it was very super duper uber FUN!!! Learnt lots of things and am glad to be part of the family!!!

We do everything together!!! It was just like my Form 5 class... So heartwarming... Group 12 rocks!!! Queen's Knights rules!!! We all rock and rule!!! haha...

Thanks to the orientation comittee for organizing events such as ice breakers, dress code, treasure hunt(indoor and outdoor), telematch, variety night and finale night... Now you know why I was so busy for this 2 weeks...

Just now before finale night ended, 21 of us went to MV for our dinner and catch a movie... Unfortunately, I can't join the latter part which they should be enjoying now...

Thank you to all OOs and members for giving such a great time... Let's do great things together!!! HE shall look out for us...

1st week...

2009-08-30T18:23:00.002+08:00

It has been 1 week since I started my Uni life... Excluding Monday and today, the earliest time that I laid my foot into my house is about 7.30pm... haha!!! Orientation week is just so tiring and busy because there's so much activities planned for us... Obviously, made lots of new friends...!!! And met up with the old ones too which is kinda fun to have them around again...

Though I have to admit that calling Joe and CJ my 'senior' feels kinda odd(though they're really older than me) because we've been playing around together for such a long time!!! haha... These few days will be the last time I'll be having fun(I think) because I'm really scared that I'll flunk my exams, so I'll be studying after this orientation(hopefully) haha!!!

Congratualations to everyone for surviving week 1!!! Thank you Lord for giving me a good head start...

Start of something new...

2009-08-24T16:12:00.002+08:00

Time for a brief update on my life!!!

On 22/8, PJ Crews had a night out and it was the very 1st time(since don't know when) that all 11 of us were there and stayed till quite late!!! haha... We intended to dine at Fullhouse at Ara Damansara but, as the restaurant has just done what its name beholds, we had to wait!!! While 'waiting', we took some pictures and decided to eat at Station 1 Cafe and watch MU!!! lol... After that, we went to our next stop-GIANT!!! Had quite a fun night...

Alright enough of the past... Time for the present and future... Had my first taste of university life today!!! Gosh, it's totally a different gameplay... Though, the fun part is that I get to meet up with my primary school buddies again!!! And guess what, Joe is the leader(or something, because still don't know what that's about) of my group or rather I just joined his group... I'm in CJ's 'house' in sports... It's like HE wants to see me do well by sending all my mates to watch over me!!! haha... Thank you Lord...

Bless me...

I AM YOU!!!

2009-08-20T18:44:00.003+08:00

Great news!!! I've finally sorted out my future!!! haha... lol!!! I can still recall about 8-9 months ago after receiving my bloody Useless Examination Certificate(UEC) , it was like the apocalypse of my world... FYI, if you're not a top student please do not take this exam!!! It's fucking useless(mostly depending on which course you intend to do in your university)!!! Piece of toilet paper might be more useful than it...haha!!!

Finished my A-Levels within less than 6 months... Thanks to everyone, I managed to make a remarkable and beautiful(though not perfect) fullstop for my pre-U life... Before this, I was always waiting for my phone to ring as it might be 'the call' for me to study medicine... But now, those calls annoys me!!! lol... Mostly, because I made up my mind already... A week before this, my target was MMA as IMU only managed to offer me the local 1 instead of the graduate pathway... 2 days later, I was offered for the graduate pathway too... Hence...

Thank you Lord for showing me the way...

P/S: I AM YOU!!!

Mentally Loitering...

2009-08-17T23:22:00.002+08:00

Slap me please!!! I really need it!!! Got offered by IMU to do the twinning that I wanted... And now I'm stuck between IMU or MMA!!! Shit... It would be easier if they just offered the local one as informed...haha!!! It seems like HE gave me a second chance and I can't make up my bloody mind...

Disappointed him???

AAAAAAAHHHH!!! Seriously show me the light please!!! Bugged a few person and all the answers started with the 'I' word... I don't know which to choose!!! Please feel free to give me more opinions...

May God bless me to make the right decision... Thank you...

Steamboat Farewell...

2009-08-15T21:28:00.003+08:00

Went to Kelly's house yesterday after Russian class... The main purpose was to say goodbye to Jit Kin, Charmaine and Chi Chun(who wasn't there)... They'll be going to AIMST tomorrow!!! Good luck guys...

We had steamboat at her house and Raghu shouldn't have left because there was so much vege!!! haha... This farewell is just the beginning, soon I'll have my own, which makes me feel sad... Miss them lots... Though I've only known them for 8 months, but the feeling when we're all together is as if we came from the same origin... haha...

Looking forward to seeing everyone(don't know when will that be)!!! God bless you guys and best wishes...

Judgment day...

2009-08-10T18:29:00.002+08:00

Today is judgment day for the CIE A-level students... Was damn nervous and anxious yesterday... Had to depend on BEP's 'I Gotta Feeling' to comfort myself... haha...

Reached Stamford at 12pm and waited for a while before Jit Kin, Kah Ling and Chi Chun came... After that we went to see Ms. Eva to collect our results... I got 2A 1B 1C... C for Bio!!! Damn... Though, not much of us got A for Bio... haha... Congratz to Kelly, Wei Xian and Raghu for scoring straight A's... And Mr. Lim was damn happy because he won the game as Physics has the most A's...

And then we started to chit-chat as this will most probably be our last time being together... Unfortunately we didn't get to watch G I Joe today... Will miss everyone...!!!

Now, the road Russia seems to be a lot more vivid right infront of me though I have the idea of the bad things that might happen to me... God bless me...

Magic...

2009-08-07T21:24:00.002+08:00

It all happened just like magic... Well, it was actually the spell of 'internet' that was chanted... It took just an old friend of mine to upload an old photo from our primary school year book... After a few taggings, Almost everyone with a FB ID was tagged in it... And know I found my primary school friends...!!! Some of whom I've never seen for 7 years... Well, most of our faces didn't really change a lot... haha!!!

And now I seriously need some magic to be cast on Monday because the results will be released and I will have a Russian test on that day!!! God bless me...

I gotta feeling that Monday's gonna be a good day~~~...

Redang...

2009-07-21T18:34:00.003+08:00

Just came back from Seremban(Charanyah's place)... This marks the end of the Redang trip... The trip was from 17/7-21/7...

17/7

Met up at KL Sentral with Jit Kin, Kuan Hui, Charmaine and Kelly at about 2pm... After having our lunch at KL Sentral we boarded the KTM to Seremban to get to Chanranyah's place as this trip was actually a school trip of her mother's but due to inactivity of the school teachers and students, outsiders can be invited to join...haha!!! Had a lot of fun in her house and about 10pm we started to head to Charanyah's mother's school to take the bus to Kuala Terengganu...

18/7

The bus ride finally ended at 6.30am!!! Never board a night bus if you are on a long trip because it will be damn cold!!! We sat at a mamak stall which discriminated us for 'breakfast'(which was our beverages) because the ferry to Redang will only available at 9am... Had a lil walk at the jetty and took lots of pics as usual... The ferry ride finally came and we reached our destination at 12.30pm... The place that we stayed was very rural-ish... And it is run by Malays... So I'll give you the name of the 'resort' so you won't go there!!! Here comes the name, it's WISANA!!!

But I have to admit that the food is okay and the orange juice just tastes so good!!! The orange juice was like damn cold throughout the whole day... And the crackers there is the best thing!!!

All six of us stayed in 1 room which just fits us... The bad thing about that place was that electricity will only be supplied from 6pm onwards!!! That's because we were supposed to have activities before 6pm... Damn stupid right???

After our 1st lunch at the resort we went to the beach for swimming!!! At about 6pm we went for island hopping and had a glance of the sunset... Then, finally we get to bath!!! We played some games after dinner...

19/7

The activity for the whole day was snorkelling!!! We started by going to the Marine Park... Saw lots of fishes and coral reefs... Later on, we went back to have our lunch... We tried to fly the kite that Kelly bought but the kite died before it can function... What a bummer... After that, we went to Pulau Baku to continue our snorkelling though there's way less things compared to Marine Park...

The best thing was at night... We chatted and took lots of funny pics that time...

20/7

Last day in Redang... Went to Long Beach and Kuala Terengganu jetty for the hunt of souvenirs... Most of us(other than Jit Kin because the size is too small for him) bought the same clothes during the last minute before the bus left us... HAHA!!!

Reached Seremban at about 11.30pm... Stayed overnight at Charanyah's house... Viewed some of pics that we took and had a good laugh at Twilight the movie as it was totally different from what we had imagined from the book.... Slept at 4.30am...

21/7

The day that I never want it to come... Because it will be the day to go home!!! Saddening... It means that I won't have life again!!! lol... How I wish that we can stay longer!!! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh...

P/S: The beach is damn nice and the sea is not polluted!!! Salty though...

Gosh... Help me please!!! Thanks...

Idle...

2009-07-17T11:34:00.002+08:00

Been kinda idle to blog recently because just too many things has happened and it can't be done by using a few lines to illustrate them...

Last Saturday, went to Arnold's mansion for his farewell party as he will be leaving for MU(Melbourne U) on the following Tuesday... But I didn't attend his 'departure party' because there's no transport!!! haha... Instead went to SS2 to 'play' ball with PJ Crews and dined at Popeye's Chicken and Seafood Restaurant...

Watched Public Enemies with Raymond on Wednesday as he will be leaving in less than 24 hours from now...

Went to Mid Valley again on Thursday to watch 'Hare Potter' with Wenly, Ai Chin, Joe, Sam and Hare Jr... After that, we got a message from CJ to play ball at his place again...

Shall be leaving for Redang now!!! Bye...

This is a summarised post of what I've been doing for this week... Its quite a fun and exciting week!!! Wonder what surprises will there be next week...

What I've Done...

2009-07-07T12:06:00.003+08:00

Alright, here's a lil summary of what I've done from Friday to Monday(yesterday)...

Friday

Went to MV with college mates to watch Transformers 2 which they had to delay for 1 week for me... Thank you very much!!! haha... After watching it, we went to Kenny Rogers for our lunch and viewed our Penang photos there... Laughed like crazy... Can't wait to go Redang... haha!!!

After that, I took a cab to CH which I have never laid my foot there since January... It didn't quite change a lot probably because we 'don't even have a headmaster'(that's what Kwan Siong said)... The whole(almost all) PJ crews and some Dota kakis were there playing basketball... haha... Feels nice to meet up with old friends at such a place where it all started... Then we went to 1U to celebrate FG Hare Jr's birthday... We dined at Peranakan Place because of CJ's honey sotong(and man it taste quite good)... As most of us are not full yet, so went to our 'paradise' a.k.a. Giant @ Al-Meerasa to continue our(excluding Tse Chien, Jiann Rong and Sook Sim) dinner... Had some great laughs there and played those IQ games that will turn me insomniac the last time I played... haha... Glad this time it didn't happen...

Saturday & Sunday

Was 'working' for my mom as she has to shift her office to another building, so I have to help her shift her baggages!!! Damn freaking tiring...

Monday

Went to 1U with PJ crews(JR, Snow, SS, Sam, Bear, CJ and our newest member-Pei Chee) for karaoke which we were scammed for paying additional fees which are more than 2 times the original price-200%... Then we went to CJ's house to play Guitar Hero...(Mind you till that time the only 'food' that I had for the whole day was just 4 letters- M.I.L.O!!!) After that we went to SS2 pasar malam for our dinner... Most of the songs played in the pasar malam were MJ's song!!! Cooooooooool!!! After that, Bear sent me and Sam home...

Michael 'the undefinable' Jackson...

2009-07-01T23:50:00.008+08:00

He was black. He is an American. He suffered from a rare disease called vitiligo which results in a skin that looks bleached. He is the man of all men. He is an icon. He is a trend-setter. He is a singer. He is a dancer. He is the entertainer of all entertainers. He is the master of the stage. He is the King of Pop. He is a teacher. He is a humanitarian. He is a god. He is a good father. He is a good son. He broke barriers. He is a good 'photographer' as he changed the landscape of M-U-S-I-C. He is a constructor whom constructed a 'bridge' between humans. He is a symbol of unity as his musics unites everyone on Earth. He indirectly represents the alphabet M. He was a living legend. He is every good thing that can happen to anyone. He who will stay in all of our hearts forever. He who is highly honoured. He who we shall salute upon. He who one shall never forget even if he/she gets Alzheimer. He who bagged 197 music awards. He who is none other than the one and only-Micheal Jackson...

He started performing since he was five... He joined his brother to form the 'Jackson Five' which I had never heard any song from them until the day he has departed from Earth... The very first song that I heard from him was 'Earth Song'... I was sitting right in front of the TV and suddenly saw this MV with all the animals and heard his vocals and I was like 'wow...!!!' because that time I still don't know much about music yet... Since then, I started to notice him with 'Thriller', 'Bad', 'We Are The World', 'Beat It', 'Billie Jean' and the list can go on and on...

His story was way before Oprah Winfrey, Tiger Woods, Barrack Obama and other African-Americans... He opened the doors and paved the roads for black people to blend in the American society... He changed music into an art which is easily accepted... Before him, not much people would listen to music because some of it are meaningless and drab... He was the one who gave music its soul... His sleek and agile moves were the toppings of his music... His life was a mystery and now his death is also a mystery... His friend said during an interview that no one knows MJ other than MJ himself...

His contribution to the world is ginormous... He fulfilled his purpose that god sent him to Earth... In fact, he has done far more than humanly possible... His songs united everyone from every corner, his name can be heard whenever there is presence of human... He helped lots of children and it might be too over for some people and hence the rumours surfaced... But who would bother bout them right now?! He will always be remembered as an almost perfect man...

Long live the king... May he seek serenity and tranquility in another dimension... Bye Michael...

Singapore...

2009-07-01T21:05:00.003+08:00

P/S: If you're a patriotic Malaysian please proceed no further, as this post contains disturbing contents...

Just came back from Singapore, and I've never felt this bad about coming back home before(other than being able to meet most of my friends and family again and wandering with my pc)... To conclude this situation, I have two words-MXXXXXIA SUCKS!!! I seriously feeling like staying in Singapore...lol...

I've stayed in Singapore for 6 days... Throughout these days, I've seen a lot... In Singapore, everyone is well-mannered... All the hotel staff will greet you as soon as they see you and even the taxi drivers greet you before you have to the chance to tell them your destination... The ushers will always chant 'Have a nice trip' when you are about to sit in the taxi... The taxi drivers ALWAYS follow the meter unlike the ones over here who will fix the price for you for a certain distance... Everyone over there is just so polite, that the waiter/waitresses there will apologize way before you start to question them unlike the ones here who will not only never apologize instead, they'll put the blame on you... And I seriously don't understand what's the point of studying 'Moral' in our school theoretically when it just comes right out of your heart intuitively(if you have it)... Its just like teaching people how to walk... Such ignorance... Or maybe it's because of the language that the subject is conducted, because in Singapore, there ain't no freaking annoying piggish language(which I always ace in it and yet despise it)... It's as if they have been discriminated, because in restaurants, there's no bloody green sign stating 'Halal' or 'Non-halal'... It sounds like heaven to me...haha...

And Singapore indeed is a man's heaven(strictly for those straight ones) because you just have to tilt your head a lil and you can see chicks everywhere!!! The amount is chicks is like you don't even have the chance to shout 'leng lui' because as soon as you want to open your mouth, another one will just be right in front you!!! Most important of all, there ain't no 'lalas'!!!

It is also a shopping heaven because in a few roads there's like a clump of shopping complex joined together... Just like seeing 1U, MidValley, Times Square, KLCC all along 1 whole road!!!

Everyone over there is kinda rich I think, because everything there is kinda cheap if you see it as a 1:1 ratio instead of 2.5:1 ratio... The waiter/waitresses in an ordinary restaurant gets a pay of S$ 6.50-7.50 per hour and the food there is damn cheap therefore, all the cars over there are worth more than RM 100k... They also have different plate numbers for different automobiles...

Everything over there is digitised... It's like living in Will Smith's character in IRobot... The signboards provides information of ETA of your destination... ETA of busses are also stated and information of busses that pass through the stations are provided as well...

In Singapore, everyone obeys the rules... It's as if they were robots planted with a chip for them to obey all the rules... Therefore, it is kinda hard to get a cab when you are in the middle of the road because you are required to queue up at a proper taxi stand to get a ride...

The roads there don't have much humps there fore you can see Ferrari's speeding across...

Everything just seems so perfect and surreal... Take a trip there if you don't believe me...

Penang trip...

2009-06-19T22:17:00.002+08:00

Warning: Long post ahead!!!

The most important thing of all is that I have to thank HIM for guiding our way otherwise I won't be able to tell you what happened for the past few days(exaggerating actually)...

Went to Penang with my college mates on Tuesday... Met up with Wei Xian and Kah Chong at KL Sentral to take the LCCT bus to airport... Reached LCCT coffee bean at 11.30am with Jit Kin, Charmaine, Kelly, Chi Chun, Kuan Hui and Chanranyah... We got prepared for the plane by 12.30pm and the flight was 1.40pm... This is the 1st time thaat I have boarded a plane since my age is a 2 digit number... Felt good and saw some panoramic views of mother nature... We reached Penang Airport at about 2.30pm and had to wait for our bloody luggage to arrive... After that, we had our lunch of waffles and McD... Then we waited for our bus to jetty for our transit to our apartment... The journey from the airport to our apartment took almost 3 bloody hours...!!!

Lashiny checked in for us and we just needed to wait for Chi Chun, Kelly and Charanyah to return as they went to get us the return bus tickets... After that, we had dinner at Gurney Drive, we went there by rapidPenang bus and came home by taxi... We ordered loads of food and shared all of it... They were quite nice... When we went back, we took turns to bath and we started playing a card game, which requires us remember our mates' false identity to fit the theme of the round... We started slow, and suddenly it heated up, we started shouting and inevitably laughed out loud especially when Wei Xian reveals his own identity because he can't remember ours... I lost my voice after that, fortunately it recovered after having a good sleep(from 3am-7am)...

Day 2- Chi Chun and Wei Xian woke me up to 'see' the sunrise... We explored an isolated 'island' which is only metres wide...haha!!! But the sun has already rose... So we head back to the apartment and wake all of them up as the day's activity would be heading to the beach... Unfortunately, the tide was too strong, so we can't swim in the sea, we can only try to stand against the strong tide, and that was what we did... It was quite dangerous though, because at times we can't control our movement at all as the tide was too strong and it can flush us anywhere... Later on, we went back to the pool in our apartment to swim and to not waste Kuan Hui's effort of blowing the ball, so we played 'Monkey' with it in the pool... By night, we wanted to have our dinner at Oriental Seafood Restaurant but then we changed our plans just because Kuan Hui went to toilet and we saw the promotion of RM 19.90 eat all you can at the restaurant in our apartment... Now you know how much a single step can change... The food was rather salty but it satisfies quantitily and not qualityly... After that, we went to the night market at Teluk Bahang... When we went back, we played a game called 'Electric Shock' which was really fun!!! Slept at 4 and woke up at 9 or 10...

Day 3- The day where we own the car!!! Yeah!!! We rented a Viva and a Wira(manual)... The Viva was for the girls and the Wira was for the guys... We went to Chinatown for our lunch because we wanted to go to Kek Lok Si(the temple)... The only food there was Asam Laksa which I can't eat... Grrrrr...!!! Ate all those fried things though... Then we headed to Kek Lok Si and saw a lot of things there... After that, we bought some Guai Ling Gou and ate it on the cable car in Bukit Bendera... When we were heading back home, we played 'Electric Shock' in the cable car again and everyone around us was like 'what the heck are these 10 people doing?!' haha!!! We felt damn tired after all those activities, so we had a rest at the apartment and by the time we were ready to have our dinner, it was already 10.30pm, we went to Oriental Seafood Restaurant because that was what we wanted to have the day before, unfortunately it closed, so we can only eat at Gurney Drive but this time, it is another end of it, guess they take shifts to open the stalls...haha!!! After the meal that we shared as usual, we went to Gurney Plaza to see if there's any midnight shows available, but the cinema closed... Even those pubs are quite empty, I guess there's just no night life in Penang...!!! So we decided to drive around instead of heading home at 12am... Little did we know that our drive around plan turned into a-I-wanna-get-back-home-ASAP-plan!!! Both of our cars were travelling together all the while, and Wira has got RM30 petrol and Viva RM20 petrol... We wanted to see the Penang Bridge and get home after that, but we took a big round back to our apartment which made us pass through the whole island... We went to Balik Pulau(never ever go there!!!)... God damn it, the roads there were damn hilly and narrow and there are no street lights!!! So we were surrounded by trees and darkness...!!! Before that, we swapped cars, Wei Xian, Chi Chun(Wira driver) and me swapped places with Kelly, Jit Kin(Viva driver) and Charmaine as Kelly wanted to try the manual car... When we went into Balik Pulau, Charanyah, Lashiny and I were so worried that Kelly cannot handle it but the car was behind us all the while... Such a huge relief... But then, there was another complication-we have 20-30km to travel back and the Wira uses a lot of petrol so we were afraid that the petrol was gonna be used up before we reached home, but thanks to Wei Xian's think positive aura, it calmed us all...
After a long journey, we finally managed to get out of the hills to a long road... Suddenly, Charmaine phoned and said that the Wira's tyre went flat, so we went back to see... When I stepped out of the Viva, I heard noises, which Jit Kin interpreted as a lil boy crying for help but all of us knows that its just a cat... All of us panicked because we have a long way to go and we don't know how to change the tyre!!! So, I called Hare Jsr immediately to ask him how to change, but then, kudos to Kuan Hui for paying attention during the undang classes, he was doing what Hare Jsr just told me... Thank God, that we managed to change our tyre... Due to safety reasons, we swapped our places back, and now I was seriously worried about our petrol consumption!!!
Whenever I heard noises, I will double confirm it with Kuan Hui, then we will call Chi Chun to pull over to check if the tyre is still performing well... We stopped twice and along the journey Chi Chun kept saying he wanted to fart...lol!!!
By the time we reach home, it was 3.30am, then we had a lil discussion about what had happened... Then only we knew that we went through a hell of adventure(by hell, I seriously meant H-E-L-L!!!)
During our 1st stop to check the tyre, Jit Kin saw a sign saying 'AWAS, kemalangan sering berlaku'... 2nd stop, when we went down, we only saw a white building full of lights, but according to the passengers in Jit Kin's car, we stopped right in front of the cemetery(having goosebumps right now)!!! Holy shit, scary ain't?! And on the journey home, Wei Xian said he saw a leng lui which none of us saw...
After these discussions, they brought the presents that they bought for me in the night market- 3 king boxers!!! When I received it, I wanted to say 'Thank you' but as I saw the contents, the frustation just overflowed my jubilant feelings... Posed some pics with it due to the request from them...
The clock struck 5++am that time, we wanted to watch sunrise but everyone started to sleep so, the plan was cancelled indirectly...

Day 4-Last day... Woke up at 10am and felt rather gloomy... This is because it will be the last day that we will be together... Such a sad departure... Tried to be happy but just can't get any better...
Missing everyone now!!! Hope to see everyone again soon...

Last but not least, Thank you Lord for paving our way out through the darkness...

P/S: Pics will be uploaded ASAP...

Partial gathering...

2009-06-14T11:33:00.002+08:00

Guess what... Yesterday PJ Crews crashed my house though it was just Hare Bros, Kwan Siong, Ken Ling and lame-o-Sam... It was supposed to be a 2pm plan but thanks to that lamo, we had to postpone it till 6pm, and the best thing is he doesn't want to swim!!! Asshole Sam(no offense)!!! lol... And we had dinner at a restaurant in Old Klang Road and it was Hare Jsr's suggestion to go to a chinese restaurant!!!

Anyway, it was fun to meet up with them, because it's like I've been away from them for a million years(though it was only 3-4 months and we live quite near)!!! Sad thing is, others are having exam so they're not present, shall make another perfect plan for us PJ Crews(everyone) to attend, it has been a damn long while since all of us were together...

Looking forward to my Penang trip on Tuesday with my college mates, because that's the only major upcoming event, and it'll surely be hell of a fun too... I don't know what shall I do after next week, I ain't made any plans yet, so I'm totally lost, please enlighten me...

Suggestions please...!!!

Emancipation of Marcus...

2009-06-10T20:07:00.002+08:00

Gosh!!! Finally it came to an end... And now I feel lost again... haha... I've been through hell for the past few months(as in exams) and am glad that it has ended but now I don't really know what to do with all the free time...slap me...

Today is exactly a week after my birthday and I finally managed to 'celebrate' it with my mates... Watched Star Trek and Terminator today!!! This is the very first time I've ever watched 2 movies in 1 day... It feels great to go out with them, but our days are limited considering that we don't have to go to college anymore and everyone lives quite far away... It's been fun studying with them though...

And I'm consuming alcohol now, guess that's my way of declaring an end to a hard fought battle... Let's hope it will be a glorious victory...

God bless me!!!

Football...

2009-04-17T20:52:00.002+08:00

Just now, Kim Fai called and asked me if I wanna join them for football tomorrow... How I wish that I can give an instantaneous response of 'sure!!!', but unfortunately, there's part of me that is inhibiting me from saying that word and the only word that I was allowed to say was 'no...' sad...

That conversation of playing football brings back all those sweet memories we had during F5... Almost every week we'll play futsal in the school or we'll play in the 'backyard football field' which is at the back of our class... The best part is we have to come out with a reason to explain to our teacher why has the glass in mirror broken AGAIN? Though I've never done that...

It's the weekends now which means its 1 week closer to my finals... aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!! My blog will once again go under hibernation mode(hopefully) at least until 10th of June... God bless me in my finals... Thank you...

Break...

2009-04-06T19:11:00.003+08:00

Finally the freaking trials are over!!! Craved for this day to come for a long time... As usual, the results will suck and I don't dare to think about it for the mean time... I need a break!!! Though I started resting since Friday... Intended to go out with my college mates but 'the man' just wouldn't allow, so stucked at home... But still, didn't do much...

Just now, after Mechanics test, we went to the canteen and discussed about our plans... The plan went from Mid Valley to Sunway to Section 14... lol!!! So, we took the bus and went to Section 14... Our destination was the Old Town Kopitiam, thanks to Raghu, we had to walk quite a distance though its not tiring... haha!!!

Had lots of fun teasing and laughing there... It's just a totally different feeling when you hang out with different people... Guess what, there were 9 of us, everyone ordered 1 drink and 1 kind of toast and the bill read RM 68.xx!!! Holy cow!!! 68 bucks for 9 pieces of bread and drinks... gah!!!

After that, we went to the bus stand and took hell lots of pictures... Will post them if possible... haha!!! What a nice way to end the last day of TRIALS... Wonder what will happen on the last day of the actual exam... God bless my results will be good... Thank you...

Spiritual outing...

2009-03-08T23:05:00.003+08:00

Grrrrr!!! I'm so not in the mood to study right now(na na na)... AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!! PJ crews are having another outing... Ask me now!!! Here's the answer: I have 2 weeks to trials so I need to study... Eventually, I don't feel like doing it right now even though I'm not with them(probably because my soul is there)...

They're currently at a look-out point in Ampang a.k.a. small Genting... It bears that name because when you get there, you can have a 'panaromic' view of the capital of this bloody shithole place!!! How I wish I could be there at this instant... I've heard that place for a zillion times, but I'm still yet to go there!!! Ahhhhhhhhhh!!!

Damn it, need to pump up my momentum already!!! God bless me!!!

Uma Rani birthday party(it rhymes...lol!!!)...

2009-03-07T00:48:00.004+08:00

Yesterday(Friday) was a fun-filled day!!! Coooooooool!!! Haha... It was my groups Malaysian pig studies presentation day(which I have no idea why the hell do we need to study such idiotic crap, maybe that's why WE cannot improve, god bless ISA doesn't see this...)... I didn't help much in the project... lol... But the fun part was the part after presenting... We were so crazy that we went to 3rd floor and keep taking pictures like there's no tomorrow haha!!! Damn crazy...

After that, went to Sam's house to attend Wen Ly and Sam's birthday bash which is held at UMA RANI!!! Haha!!! Thank you Sam for fetching me... Here comes the scolding part(literally): Damn you Sam!!! Why the heck did you put paint my face with creams, though everyone else got it too... Damn dirty!!!

Here's the attendance list: Yi Le, Arnold, Kee Yin, Hong Sen, Hsin Wei, Ruey Fwu, Man Yao, Ai Chin, Lee Chian, Ee Von, Pei Chee(dai sou), Bao Yi, Ai Mei, Yun Xin, and the 2 most important person for the day: Wen Ly and her dearest 'husband' Sam the man!!! Haha...

Other than Sam, I didn't meet up with them for hell of a time already, glad to see them back!!! haha... Fortunately, the best BS-er(Kum Fye) wasn't there, otherwise we could have been chased out for our involuntary laughters...

Last but not least: Happy belated Birthday Wen Ly and Sam!!!

P/S: Wen Ly, I'll update the photos later, stop nagging... haha... Are you satisfied now???

In Another Life...

2009-03-03T22:58:00.003+08:00

Alright, late night now, feel like sleeping but don't want to go yet, so how??? Online la!!! Easy solution...

Found out a new song from a band or rather 2 singers in 1 which I loved... They are The Veronicas!!! Round of applause to them!!! Yeeeeeha!!! It's quite a surprise to hear this kinda soulful ballad from them as they're used to singing rock songs such as 4ever, Everything I'm Not and others which brought them to fame... Totally surprising!!!

The Veronicas - In Another Life
I have known you my whole life
When you were ten, you said you'd make me your wife
Eight years later you won me over
Just as I took the world on my shoulders

I got used to living without you
Endless phone calls and dreaming about you
Always said that you were my man to be
But I guess I was in love with your memory

You know I love you, I really do
But I can't fight anymore for you
And I don't know, maybe we'll be together again
Sometime, in another life
In another life

I know I said that I would keep my word
I wished that I could save you from the hurt
But things will never go back to how we were
I'm sorry I can't be your world

You know I love you, I really do
But I can't fight anymore for you
And I don't know, maybe we'll be together again
Sometime, in another life
In another life (another life)

The way you're holding on to me
Makes me feel like I can't breathe
Just let me go, just let me go
It just won't feel right inside
God knows I've tried

You know I love you, you know I do
But I can't fight anymore for you
And I don't know, maybe we'll be together again
Sometime, in another life

In another life, in another life

In another life ...

Guys and gals check it out yo!!! It's a super duper nice song, but if you're in a tormented relationship please don't...

P/S: Wen Ly are you satisfied with it now??? An update already... haha!!!

Pondering or rather dreaming...

2009-03-01T00:28:00.003+08:00

ARGHHHHHHHHHH!!! Few more weeks left before trials and I'm online at this time!!! What is wrong with me???!!! Screw it... Damn... Gotta start hardcore studying from tomorrow onwards so that history won't repeat itself...

I feel all the pressure but I still have some playing-disease in me which I can't inhibit it FOR THE MOMENT... Speaking of playing, I seriously hope that I can celebrate Sam and Kwan Siong's birthday this month(don't blame me if I'm not there!!!), and if possible I can still get good grades... haha!!! Too ideal to happen, but what's life without hope??? Thank god that this disease isn't going to get any worse, because the worse was during last year!!!

God, heal me please!!! It's fine if you don't heal me though, but please bless me!!! I need Lady Luck so badly...

And now I shall meet you in my dreams... See you there...

Star Village...

2009-02-22T17:38:00.002+08:00

YESH A!!! Yesterday I finally had to chance to hang out with PJ Crews again(unfortunately Joe wasn't there...) As usual, went to Sam's house darn early because of the 'better late than never' custom... In the end, we had to go to Hare's house to fetch those 2 asses...!!! haha!!!

And then, we started exploring... Sam's sister suggested to go to Old Klang Road because there's a nice restaurant called Star Village... Good thing is we were able to reach the destination at about 10pm though... haha!!! This is a PJ Crews tradition, so it's expected...

Done all the usual stuffs- teasing, laughing, playing!!! Hell of a fun!!! haha... The next activity was to stay overnight at Tse Chien's house but unfortunately I can't stay...!!! Bloody shit!!! Otherwise it would've been a nice fullstop for such a day...

Friday the 13th...

2009-02-13T20:01:00.004+08:00

Today is Friday the 13th... It is related to bad luck... So far nothing bad has happened to me YET!!!

After chem class today, I went to INC with my college mates for L4D!!! Coooooooooooooool!!! Then, we had lunch at SS2 and went back to Stamford to attend the bloody idiot piggish Malaysian studies... Bloody hell!!!

Something did happen in that period, but not in the class and certainly not me... There was this psycho kind of a guy in the class who left after the break... Rumour has it that he was eating at the canteen and then suddenly, he just threw an empty 100 plus can to a girl, furthermore, he ran into her and slapped her face... OMG!!! Poor girl... No matter how uncontrollable I get, I don't think that I'll slap someone in the face especially...

That about sums up the 'unlucky' day of mine... God bless me...

Pre-Valentines...

2009-02-11T18:40:00.003+08:00

Intended to have lunch with PJ Crews because it had been quite a damn freaking long time since I went out with them, and I think the streak will keep going... So, I ended up having lunch with my Stamford friends and then I went to KFC to help them out... Not KFC of course...

I helped them to do those chocolate bouquets... This is the 2nd time that I did something for this unsuitable-for-eligible occasion- Valentine's Day... ahhh... How I wish I could be 1 of the recipient(I'm dreaming)... lol...

Alright... Happy pre-Valentine's Day everyone!!! Obviously, I won't be celebrating it...

Regression...

2009-02-07T22:26:00.002+08:00

Regret is a funny thing... You try your best in your life to avoid it, but sometimes, it's the hard thing in life that teach us the most... Which makes you wonder, if given a chance, how many of us would do things differently???

For some, regret is the very thing that helps us push past our fear and move into the future... For others, it's the thing that allows us to explore the past... And its best, regret can be a catalyst for a new beginning, where everything and anything is still possible...

All of us are imperfect... Due to our imperfectness, we often make mistakes and hence, we might regret... That only different thing that differentiates the smart and stupid is how often they make mistakes... I've made some mistakes and decisions that I kinda regretted it... The important thing is we have to get over our past(something which I'm still working on) and never repeat the same stupidity...

So, just live your life(oh, ayy ayy ayy) without any regression if possible...!!!

My house...

2009-01-31T19:22:00.003+08:00

Ok... Today finally the PJ Crews(Ken Ling the only exception, sad case) came to my house... YEAH!!! Waited you guys for 1 whole day man... Came a while and then you guys went back... Please come again so that we can own that fucking bastard!!!

Alright, wanna hear a lil story??? Just now, we went for swimming for a short while... Then came a fucking bastard asshole who thinks he is damn smart... Here comes the conversation:
Fucker: Who's the resident over here?
I raised my hand...
Fucker: Why did you bring so many visitors? Have you read the house rule?
Me: No!
Fucker: Go read it, idiot.
Me: Hey, this is New Year, bringing my friends along doesn't make me an idiot.
Then the fucker shut his fucking lips...
Unfortunately, CJ had to rush home, otherwise, I'll stay there as long as I can and continue to shout at him...
Before we left the pool, "Lunatic, God bless you!" I exclaimed... He said you too and I replied thanks... muahahaha...

Alright here comes the reason why I will this arguement from every perspective...
1. I'm the resident here, there's no wrong to bring visitors along...
2. He called me an idiot... If you are a lawyer, you should know that it can be counted as an insult... And so he is so dead...
3. I'm one of the pioneer residents here!!! I'm sure I lived here way before your fucking bitchy mom who worked as whore got fucked by your bastard jerkish asshole dumbo idiot dad's less than 0.01mm penis...

Go to hell you fucking idiot!!! I sincerely hope that God will bless you, because you are such a pathetic and idiot jerk... If HE doesn't bless you, I really don't know how long more do you have in this planet they call EARTH!!!

P/S: Sorry for the obscenity and vulgarities in this post, but this idiot just deserved every word I typed and I can't think of any other words to say it...

Fuck you son of a bitch!!! Hereby, I curse all of your ancestors and descendants and most important of all- YOU(referring to the idiot who called me an idiot mentioned above)!!!

New Year outings...

2009-01-29T10:50:00.002+08:00

On Tuesday night, I was called out to yum cha with PJ Crews(other than CJ, JR, TC and SS) at a mamak near Giant which is also nearby Sam's house... I reached Sam's house at 10pm sharp, but there was no one in the house!!! Ass!!! Had to call Kwan Siong to fetch me to his house... Waited for the blackie co. there... Youtubed a while before going mamak...

Then the 'party' started... Discussed and decided the CNY tour... By 1.++am, we decided to head home... Thanks to Hare Bros, Kwan Siong and me needed them to accompany us home... By that, I mean follow us till we get in to our house... They told a lot of freaking creepy ghastly stuffs in the car, furthermore, they drove to those freaky houses... I reached home at 2am...

The next day was the CNY tour... I woke early in the morning and was glad that my dad was still asleep otherwise I would've been slaughtered... Went to Sam's house at 10.50am... Fortunately, his family was there this time, and so, the ANGPAU!!! Later on, we went to CJ's house for XBox time, and then settled in Kwan Siong's house for gambling... Heck man, I lost like hell and it could be said as my worst lost of all my gambling history... I almost had to open up the angpaus I collected to settle the bills...

After that, we went to INC for CS!!! Yee haa!!! Damn fun... Didn't go CS with them for a long time... And then, the time to answer our stomach's growling came... Due to our flowing of $$$ at Kwan Siong's house, all of us aimed for cheap food... Thanks to the CNY celebrations, not much chinese restaurants were open... In the end, we settled in KFC at Atria...

Hopefully, I can go out tomorrow again to collect more $$$... lol...

Friday...

2009-01-24T11:36:00.002+08:00

It was a fun and entertaining Friday I had...

Went to Stamford early in the morning just to attend Chem and unmissable Physics class!!! After that went to Mid Valley with them to watch 'Underworld: Rise of the Lycans'... Quite fun to go with them... The movie was nice too... Noticed that I didn't write the '3' beside the 'Underworld'??? It's because I don't think it's the 3rd episode!!! It's just the 3rd installment of the movie franchise but it is the prequel of the Underworld movies...!!! Even in the movie they didn't state the '3' there... Damn bloody PIGs, they just like to screw things up...

After that, I reached home at 5.30pm and rushed everything because I was told to reach Sam's house by 6pm... But as expected, I won't be the last... I bought the very first cake by myself... RM 74... cooooool!!! lol...

After we gathered up, we started our journey to Desa Park City... That place is so damn freaking awesome!!! So many crazy stuffs to play... After everyone reached there, we dined at Kluang Station... Bloody foods... Then we went back out to play those things again... I really felt millions of butterflies in my stomach after playing it...

When the celebration ended, some of us went to the Giant near Sam's house to yum cha... I didn't order anything due to the aftermath of playing too much... As usual, gossiped and teased... Reached home at 2am... Thanks to CJ's mosquito repellent, I had a tough time closing my eyes...

Happy belated belated Birthday Chia Jie and Tse Chien!!!

Cinema...

2009-01-16T14:38:00.002+08:00

Saw this news yesterday... It will affect every youngster or maybe even adults who live in this shithole place... The pig said that the cinema ticket might be increased to RM20 per person!!! What the heck... Here comes the reason: he said that the local movies don't get welcomed in the cinemas, so they will increase the ticket prices(mostly for Hollywood movies) to 'force' locals to enjoy watching local movies instead of foreign movies...

LAME!!! Brainless fool... This will not help you get higher rate in local movies instead it will only increase the wages of cinemas!!! Bloody idiot!!! People watch foreign movies mostly because of the story, the actor/actress, which manages to attract their curiosity to have the itch to watch it... And so, increasing the ticket price will not change a thing other than the cinema's income...

By doing so, it's just a so piggish way of solving things... They don't figure out the main problem instead they just solve things based on what they see... They never think out of the freaking box...

Local movies aren't popular among us mainly because the story sucks, the acting skill ain't good, the actors and actresses aren't famous(they are only well-known among the pig community)...

The worst thing is that damn pig denied all the above and stated that the proposal was not written yet... Hell ya... Use your brains(you do have 1 right?) please... Lunatic pigs...

Saturday night out...

2009-01-11T18:51:00.002+08:00

I'm a total jerk(from a certain prospective), because I spent my Saturday night with PJ Crews instead of attending the one and only A-Level night... Kill me!!! lol... Good thing is I had quite lot of fun despite the losing money part...

We(everyone except Hare Bros and Joe) went for dinner at a Chinese restaurant near Sam's house... That place was highly recommended by Snow because her parents loved to dine there or something like that...haha...

After that, we decided to give our ass some rest at Ken Ling's house... And then all of us except the lame-o-Sam started gambling... haha!!! Sam was sitting on the couch watching TV ALL BY HIS DAMN SELF!!! lol...

And now here comes the climax and suspense... How did I get home without the presence of the Hare Bros??? Thanks to CJ for solving this problem... haha...

New 'home'...

2009-01-09T21:23:00.002+08:00

Alright, I've spent 3 days studying at Stamford... It was really fun to join in the class although it's quite odd to crash in in the middle of the course... I was welcomed with open hands and I'm glad of it...haha... Made some new friends too, although I'm not that close with them yet, but I'll try my best to bond with them!!! Damn la, studying there really made me wonder why did I wasted 2008 at that bloody shit school with idiotic systems that I despised so much... Really wished that I could blend into the current class last year with them... Then, I won't be such a stranger to some of them, thought I ain't any stranger after spending 3 days with them...

I"m so blissful because I was invited to go to the A-Levels night... Tomorrow will be the annual A-Levels night in Stamford, but I'm not going... I got to know some of mates already but lots of teachers and unknown people were invited hence I won't be going...

The truth is, I feel like a freaking jerk now for refusing to go but I can't find a strong reason that can convince me to go... Damn!!! Nevermind, hope that there will be more events after the exam with my new mates...

Bang... KABOOM!!!

2009-01-05T16:00:00.002+08:00

Hey ho!!! I'm licensed to bang already!!! Wanna try me??? Lol... haha... Surely, I won't dare to bang... It's good to finally accomplish the 2nd thing of the year(1st was 7.0 for IELTS)... I sincerely hope that every forthcoming things can go as smooth as possible and as good as I wish(a little too much?) lol...

Alright, I might be studying a super duper intensive A levels course at Stamford College, PJ... Well because, most of the universities that I'm ABOUT to apply will have thier intakes at Aug-Oct, so its a huge gap and so I'll try my best to do well in this 6 months EXTREME course... Secondly, I'm not satisfied with the bloody idiot stupid UEC results!!! UEC sucks!!! Damn... Wish me luck in this new barrel which I'm about to push away... Thanks...

Kind auntie...

2009-01-03T22:20:00.003+08:00

I met the kind CHINESE auntie again, today!!! She's so good man... Met her in the lift, she asked me where did I bought the newspapers and said "Have a nice weekend"... Oh damn, how often can you hear that from a total stranger??? I bet not even your friends will say that to you very often...

I wonder what will Malaysia become if every piece of flesh can do the same... Unfortunately, those egoistic and freaking bastard pigs will never ever do so... I can put my life on it... Guess this country will stay the same even in 2020... haha... We're so doomed to be here...

1st...

2009-01-01T23:27:00.002+08:00

Yo!!! This is my first post of the year!!! Went to 1U today with family just to shop and bought some new clothes...

This year I really have to work real hard if I want to be a doctor...!!! Therefore, please bless me... And motivate me if I seek for your help... I really cant afford any slips like last year AGAIN!!!

May GOD bless all of you in this brand new year...

Finale...

2008-12-31T22:22:00.002+08:00

In less than 2 hours, 2008 will be history...!!! It means that my high school life has come to an end... This year I've learnt a lot especially from those trips...

I really hope that 2009 will be a new start because this year I slumped into a shithole...!!! I've been more idle compared to last year!!! Damn... Didn't feel motivated to study and was less hardworking...

I must be more hardworking from next year onwards as I'll be going in a university, so hectic schedule is expected...

Best wishes to me and all of you...

Happy New Year!!!

Pangkor...

2008-12-29T12:27:00.003+08:00

Just came back from Pangkor with my 5S6 classmates(20 of us) yesterday... Reached home at 10.30pm and was so tired... Opened the freaking letter from IMU which brought bad news... Browsed for some Unis and slept... Woke up at 11am today...

26th- We gathered at PuduRaya to search for the bus that will bring us to the jetty... Then, we sat on a ferry to reach Pangkor... After that, we had to board 2 vans for 20 of us to reach our apartment... But we ate at a restaurant(which we had most of our meals) before checking in... After checking in, we prepared ourselves for our 1st and only activity of the day-snorkelling... Our boat driver was a 'blow water machine'...haha... He brought up some sea cucumber and sea rambutan for us to have a glance... Went back to the apartment and swam at the pool... At night, we went to the beach for sight-seeing after dinner... Saw lots of stars and some sea creatures called 'blue tears' or whatever it is because it blinks with blue light in the sea... Then we bought some burgers to continue enjoying the panoramic view of the sky...

27th- The jungle trekking was not that fun compared to Gopeng but the leeches were multipled... We cycled in the evening... I had no idea of how to work it... But lastly I managed to cycle 3 steps... And now I'm still having butt-ache for it... Damn painful!!! We also played water polo in the swimming pool...

28th- Our last day together... Had brunch at a mamak... And checked out at 12++ noon... We wanted to have a glance of the whole island by van but we were lucky to not do it because we reached town at 1.15pm and looked around... After that, we went to the jetty and waited for about 1 hour to board the ferry... If we took the van round it will take 2 hours and we might not be able to sit the 5pm bus ride home... Phew, good decision... haha... Our 5pm bus ride was adventurous and bumpy...haha...

Will upload the pictures later... Too bad Sam, Wen Ly and Zao Chong coudn't make it for the trip otherwise it will be more fun... Hope to have another trip next year...!!! Bye mates...

God bless me that I will be enrolled in a good uuniversity...

Curve...

2008-12-23T10:28:00.003+08:00

Finally, went out with PJ crews again... Yesterday we went to The Curve... Had dinner at Manhattan Fish Market which we had to pay RM 270.35 but I paid RM 170 to make amends for my recent flaws... haha...

After that we splitted into 2 groups because Snow, SS, JR and Ken Ling wanted to go to IKEA to shop... And so, the leftovers went to Giant at Kota Damansara because Joe shouted 'Free Parking' and that's how we went to Giant of all Giants!!!

Came home at 12 but I slept at 2am and I was still full... Good and fun day!!! More to come please...

HELL of a week...

2008-12-18T19:38:00.002+08:00

As you can see, I had a hell of a week... I was lifeless when I'm online and stupid streamyx got disconnected since Sunday- this means I don't even have to chance to be a lifeless brat... Damn!!! Those bloody idiots... I reported on Monday morning and they finally fixed it today... What the heck man... Babi tak perlu kerja a??? Hmm... I think they really 'tak perlu'... Because pigs eat and sleep, sleep and eat and it just goes on... Its kinda hard to find the word 'work' in thier daily routine... You might as well ask why aren't they fired... Well, its because they're MXXXy who claims to be the 1st race to set foot on our country... Fuck them!!!

Started Bio tuition in order to prepare for the Medicine course that I'm about to take(hopefully IMU accepts me)... I found out that I've wasted 1 year of Bio lesson!!! 1st of all our Bio is taught in Chinese... 2nd and most important of all- our bitchy fucking idiot Bio teacher Mrs./Ms./Madam/WIDOW 苏慧珊 taught us nothing other than: you can read the book yourself... She teaches by reading the book... WTF!!! Our Bio is just a corner of the iceberg of A-levels, that's all I can say... God bless me in my upcoming IELTS exam on Saturday...

IMU Interview...

2008-12-11T16:41:00.004+08:00

Yeshhhhhh a!!! The IMU interview is finally over... Frankly speaking, I think I'm addicted to being interviewed... haha!!! I wasn't nervous at all... I think it happened because when I was waiting at the lift for my parents to come out from the house, I met an aunty and she said 'Have a good day!' although I've never seen her before... Thank you aunty!!! God bless me that I get to study there... Tomorrow will be another hard day- UEC results day... Hope everyone can get the results they wished for...

Oh my god man!!! Who's that hot looking guy???

Tension,,,

2008-12-10T19:40:00.002+08:00

Ahhhhhh!!! 2 days of tension coming ahead!!! Tomorrow will be my interview day at IMU... So scared but calm too, don't know what's happening to me... Hope I can pass!!! On Friday, the UEC results will be released!!! Shit man... No confidence at all to face my results... Damn it, 2 days of suffering and I'll be a happy man again... May Lady Luck stand by my side, God bless me... Thank you...