Deception...

I'm so sick of you!!! And i know that it's not right to say this but i just feel like saying it, i hate you!!! Can you just stop deceiving me in saying that everything is for my own good, when you don't even know what i really want, so much for staying under 1 roof for so long... I hate it that you deceive me by wanting me to do well, but in the end it's for your own freaking glory... Can you just freaking say that you're worshiping yourself through me!!!

At the same time i pity you... Because you have no hope, you don't have Jesus and you don't even want to... And you need me to satisfy your needs which obviously i won't... YOU'RE JUST SO PATHETIC!!!

Whatever blasphemous crap you said, i just feel like yelling go to hell at you... But i know i shouldn't but i already did it in my heart... I know i'm a rebellious child, but sometimes i just can't take this shit anymore... Since you think you're such a wise man in your own freaking eyes, then just continue with it, maybe when you meet God, you will know how evil i am... And you can continue with your blasphemous craps because i don't feel like reproving you due to your wiseness and attitude... I know that i sound a lil self-righteous here, but i just can't take it...

O LORD, please help me to persevere through all these nonsense...