Amazing Grace!!!

Finally, I get to meet my brothers and sisters!!! I feel so happy and sad at the same time... Sad because I can only meet them once a month... The sermon was on John 9... It's about a blind man being healed by Jesus and how he actually saw even though he was blind, but it was the Pharisees who were actually blinded even though they have visual abilities... This is how graceful and powerful God is in His salvation plan!!! FYI, I helped a blind man to cross the road while waiting for my ride to church, talk about God's timing... hahaha!!!

I just can't figure how can one live a life without Him... Even simple logic tells you that being attached too much on worldly possessions brings no good, otherwise people won't be killing each other or even themselves just because of their very own failure to achieve what they wanted... You, a folly, stop wasting your life on meaningless things!!! Your life in God's eye is much more than just a stupid Ph.D or thousands of shops that you have behind your name... He wants you to be a ruler of the world under HIM!!! A ruler!!! Not just a mere intellectual being or a business man, but a ruler!!!

And guess what... His salvation is a total free gift from Him... You don't and can't do anything to acquire it... How good is that???

So, do you see the truth??? Or are you just following blindly because your parents told you to do so, or just because it makes sense to you??? And if you see the truth, what kind of image of Jesus are you seeing??? Is it really the Jesus' version of Jesus or your own interpretation of Him???

If you're seeing Jesus based on your own interpretations, then you are no different from those religious people out there, for this is the very reason why religions were made in the 1st place, isn't it so???

It is glad to know that the whole church knows what I'm going through right now... And how impactful a minor action can make to the whole congregation, because by me attending the gathering, it is already very edifying and encouraging for them... aaaaaaaaahhhh... Thank God for using me to glorify Him in such a way, but I seriously don't want to go through this anymore... LORD, please help me get this done and over with!!!

LORD, please bless us all...

HELP...

Didn't make it to church AGAIN today!!! LORD, I really need your help to open up their eyes, not that I can go to church peacefully, but so that they will be saved!!! Please save my mom!!!

There's one thing that I really don't understand... My dad keep insulting and throwing questions at me about this matter, but I can keep quiet and not defend it... hmm...

No matter what happens... God will be glorified!!! Hallelujah!!!

Love...

I am very troubled recently... Thanks to my ungodly parents... Wonder what will happen this Sunday... Shall do my best and stand up for the gospel... LORD, please help me!!!

O God,

How great is your love,

That you sent your Son to be crucified...

What did we do to deserve such grace???

You could have just zapped us and send all of us away,

How I wish that could happen,

Though I won't want to dwell in hell,

But sometimes I just really don't know what to do anymore,

I've done my part, and it's all up to you now, LORD,

To have mercy upon them...

I pray that you will help me to open up more eyes and ears to see and hear you,

So that they will come to know how loving you are and not just merely by our own humanly definition of love...

I want to live under You, for there's no greater joy than this... Lord, please help me with this...