Speechless...

I feel very sad today... Not because of exams which is in less than 2 weeks time but because of my conversations with my mom... I've been trying really hard to show her what Christianity really means since don't know when and yes it might be because I never rely and trust in God that He will work in her, but I just don't know what more to say...

Every time she will bring back the same arguments and it just makes me wonder whether she really got and thought about what we talked the previous time... The gospel is just so clear and logical despite the IWoG, that I don't know how to add on to what I had just said anymore...

If only my tears can win unrepentant hearts for You, I'd go blind daily... I really wish that this could happen... Oh well, God is sovereign...

And I seriously have no idea how the heck can someone live without God... Yes, you might feel good when you sin after all who would like to be controlled by someone else, but in knowing God, there's a greater joy than everything else, and best of all you actually have nothing to lose... By sinning, you lose everything... You lose your true identity and purpose of being on Earth...

This Advent season is just really driving me crazy in a good theological way that I just keep thanking God for His IWoG of sending His own Son- The Man Jesus Christ to die for our sins...

Food for thought: Did God send His own Son to the cross just to cleanse our sinful flesh??? This sounds so man-centered, or is there a bigger picture to it???

After pondering over this, I hope that you will view the cross in a different way... That's what I learnt from John and Isaiah thus far...

Working FOR YOUR Salvation

Most people will think that this is possible without knowing that they're saying that in their hearts... Let me just clarify 1 simple term, SALVATION... Well, salvation basically means the act of saving or protecting from harm, risk, loss,destruction(from dictionary.com)... Ok, let's be frank on this, where do you this can happen to you??? There's definitely ain't no place like this on Planet Earth!!! So, this place should be heaven right??? I'm not equating salvation to heaven but this is just to simplify things and I bet most of you are definitely thinking in that...

Now, IF you want to work for salvation or to get into heaven, how can you do it??? Well, the answer you can think of is probably by doing good works which is correct... BUT, here comes the problem, what kind of works are good and what the heck is GOOD?! Let me assume that all of us have a common understanding that good things are to obey the law and stuff, but how do you fit heaven into this picture... Here's a simple example of what I'm hitting on, just imagine that you're applying to get a job, all of your preparations and interviews has to be done to secure your place of getting that job right??? So you can see that in order to get a job, all the procedures that has to be done are all job-related, logical la...

I hope that in your mind at least the concept of heaven you must have is that there's God's presence... So, based on the example above, in order to get into heaven a.k.a the place where God is, what kind of work do you think you CAN DO to get there??? God-related works la!!!

I bet most of you out there don't even know who God is in the 1st place, so why do you even bother to do what you're doing now??? Because it ain't getting you to heaven which means you're definitely going SOMEWHERE(I think you know where it is)...

I'm not saying that once you know God, you can start working your way to heaven... I know this sounds contradicting but just try to grasp what I'm saying... You can't work your way to heaven just by knowing God because you just DON'T WANT to listen to Him moreover TO WORK FOR HIM!!! For goodness sake, we can't even understand God properly, how can we know what He wants us to do... That is why Jesus came to Earth!!! To reveal who God is, what He wants us to do, and to give life a.k.a. heaven and bring judgment a.k.a. hell... Thankfully, we DON'T HAVE TO WORK for our SALVATION, otherwise we'd be doomed to destruction before we even try to find out who God is...

You might know say that by knowing Jesus and doing all that He said can get you into heaven a.k.a legalism, BUT then you're just missing the whole point of Jesus dying on the cross for your idiotic sins!!! He came to show us what we're supposed to do which is to glorify God and how we have always failed to do so... Then the consequence of accepting or rejecting this truth falls in... AND NEVER THE OTHER WAY ROUND!!! By believing in Jesus to get you to heaven, you're no different from those who believe in Jesus' signs... Because the importance of the signs are not the actions but the arrow that the signs are pointing to which is Jesus is The Christ, The Son Of God!!!

And we are to live like Jesus because this is how it should be... We, creations should glorify our Creator in every single aspect of our life!!! In heaven, we will be worshipping God, so we should also live life on Earth like heaven in a sense that we should keep honoring God for who He is and not to want to get to heaven because you'll be missing the point!!!

May God help you seek Truth...

Feeling Isaiah 6!!!

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!! I feel like Isaiah in chapter 6 right now!!! I was relying on my own bloody sinful strength to evangelize!!! What the heck was I even thinking?! A mere man who can't even understand God properly and uses his own limited knowledge to evangelize and relies on it?!

So thankful that I was able to see where I went wrong... Yet again, thankful for the grace that was given to me...

May God be glorified...

Free lunch...

There's no free lunch in this world!!! Sounds familiar??? I'm sure you have heard this a dozen of times... Come to think of it, how true is this statement??? Through our logical and experiential-based mind, this is a proper and 100000000000% correct statement... By FREE I mean totally not expecting anything in return, therefore it's called free, and LUNCH meaning any substance or whatever that can be offered by someone to you... Try taking a step back and think of the following situations... I'm definitely not saying that they're illogical though...

On your birthdays thus far, I bet you've accumulated tons of gifts, but have you ever asked those who gave you the presents, how much was it??? You might say that they might ask favors from you in the future... Based on the amount of presents they gave you till this age, do you think there's any favor in the world that can repay back their sincerity??? You might want to question their sincerity, but if they weren't sincere in the 1st place, they wouldn't have endured such 'great pain' in putting up masks just to please you for years in order to ask for your help... There you go, evidence of 'free lunch'...

Have you ever wondered why were you delivered into this world??? Why would a woman knowing that she will bear the most unbearable pain in this entire God-made-universe to give birth to a tiny little 'demon' like us??? Especially it has to last through 9 months of suffering and cautiousness in taking care of her own body to sustain this puny life of ours... Let's say in some miraculous way, the baby that just came out of the womb can talk instantly, do you expect that little thing to ask the woman how much was it??? NEVER!!! Now is this 'free lunch'??? Just an add on to this undefeatable case of 'free lunch', that woman would give in everything to protect that small and precious thing of hers even it takes up her life...

Are the above examples categorized as 'free lunch'??? Yes... That's because they are so priceless that you just can't measure it... Are they the most logical and rational thing to do??? This you should think about it yourself...

Now, there's even something greater than all these... The best 'free lunch' in the world or rather amazing grace(grace means unmerited GIFT, which I don't think it is sufficient to describe this) is God's love!!! Do you know why??? Let me tell you... God the Creator who made everything, sees us as rulers of the world... But we, sinful depraved Satan follower human beings, just like to be our own gods with our own lives... We just like to do things our own way because we like to control, I mean who doesn't want to??? My destiny is in my hands right??? And that is how we failed to live up to God's standard and we might not even tried to live it... Some of us might say that we believe in the EXISTENCE of God, but then do you really mean it??? Do you even know who He is??? If not, then do you still say you believe in Him??? Or are you just making up your very own image of god to suit your bloody needs???

In seeing what kind of deep shit we are in, there was a Man that came to solve this problem of the fallen world... And He was sent by God the Father HIMSELF... We totally had nothing to do with it in a sense that we never wanted Him to come anyways... This Man is Jesus!!! He solved our foolishness by dying in our place on the cross... And He never asked anything from us, other than following Him, so that we too, can have fellowship with Him... Be remembered that, it was God the Father Himself who sent Jesus even though we never wanted Him and continued to rebel against God... That's the supremacy of God's love!!! The ULTIMATE FREE LUNCH!!! Again, if we were to try to repay it, then we're just missing the point!!! Well, even now, this truth has been preached to so many people, but some of them are still rejecting and suppressing the truth... It just shows you how much we really don't want God in our lives and we just want to take charge of our so called destiny... Try imagining those days before Jesus came... What state was it then... I don't think there's any difference though...

Just to clarify, submitting and living your life for Jesus is NOT a way of repaying God's grace... Instead it is the most natural reflex action that we can give... It's like you've been living in a sick and filthy place for your whole life, suddenly someone asks you to follow him for a better life, what more can you do other than to work for him???

Christmas is coming up... The day when Jesus The Christ was born... So what are you going to do about this 'free lunch'???

May God soften your heart to let you in to His Kingdom...

Rebuke me please!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...!!! I HAVE NO BLOODY MOOD TO STUDY!!! Please rebuke me!!! Thinking bout ministry and Christmas just makes me feel high and it makes me fly so high up to heaven that I just don't feel like coming back to this sinful place anymore!!! hahaha...

This is how joyful it is to work for God though not denying that studying is also a form of service to God... But I'm just so excited about all these stuffs...

LORD, I seriously need Your help to make me study!!!